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2006-11-29T19:38:00.000+08:00

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The Last Day

2006-10-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

16th Oct, The Last Day as an Official student of SJI.

4 years of uncountable memories, priceless experiences and treasured relationships.

I'll definitely do a whole sum up of my life in SJI, expect a Mega-long summary at the end of the year.

But for now, there's a mountain to scale and i'm still a few hundred hours away from completing it.

20/8/03

2006-08-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

First of all:
Happy birthday Mummy! Actually it's on Monday, and she'd probably not see this. But oh well!

The countdown is three weeks to the start of prelims (excluding english on the 28th of august). Science pracs next week.

Not alot of time left i guess.

It's time to start. (Might be a LITTLE too late huh?)

Might not be staying at home soon.
Probably will be shifting to my grandaunt's house. (my second home)
Cos my other grandaunt will be taking my room.
She needs to be looked after cos she has some severe illness.

Maybe I can finally mug at in a new environment? I DO have a whole room to myself, not forgetting a toilet and study table and air con and queen size bed, all in a three story house with a fantastic grandaunt who cooks delicious dinner and a cool aunt and uncle who's always cool to talk to.

So yeah, people out there takin prelims and O's, don't give up!

A little prayer to God:

Please, somehow, with your miraculous power, allow the class to wake up and start acting seriously?
And for the many other problems and issues, please somehow make it better.

Amen.

August

2006-08-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

It's already August, and around 4-5 weeks to prelims?

One month past by so fast, yet truthfully i haven't started revision much. Well, just wanted to take a look back on how these four weeks past by.

I disappointed people in track and field, again. Though it was my last year. Didn't qualify for javelin again. I honestly thought it was no problem, seeing how i passed the mark so many times during training. And all i could do was helplessly watch the rest of them go on with their events. I was feeling kinda down throughout while the meet lasted. The only consolation i had was that i need not go down for training anymore. Not that i don't want to, but rather, it would give me more time to study.

Chinese O level listening was a breeze, luckily. Thought the questions were pretty simple. Probably would get a perfect score, if not then maybe 9/10. Just one question that alot of people were debating over. However, chinese oral were really bad. Discussion topic was one that was covered during class, yet when it came to me, my mind just blanked out. Totally. I was struggling just to string my sentences together. It was bad, really bad.

Okay, i might sound very depressed and all, but don't worry, i'm over those already. =)

Replacing chinese periods now were tests. Physics, chem, english, and weekly math tests. They're all coming, and i'm not prepared. I have been failing almost every single one that comes my way.

Just handed down SSVP on tuesday, hope the new committee will run it well next year. Now all my weekdays after school are free slots for studying. But what am i doing? Watching too much anime on youtube. Oh gosh, i think i spent over 100 hours on it already. Maybe even more than that! I dunno. Considering how many series i've already watched. I think i should just get my uncle to put a password on the 'www.youtube.com' website. Haha.

I found out that i can't study in silence, and without movement. Music doesn't really solve the problem, cos i'll be more likely be focusing more on the song than my work. Last saturday, i was supposed to meet Ali and nicky at esplanade to study. But plans got changed and i ended up at t.p's entertainment center macs. Funny thing was, i did 4 hours of solid chem revision there. Whenever i felt tired or bored, i'd just look up to see all the people on the other side of the glass going on with their lives. Weird as it is, but I could sit there all day just observing people moving around. No music, no other person to talk to, just me in a corner with my book, observing others. Haha. So i guess, libraries and my room doesn't fit me for studying does it? I need to find a place to study soon, and make sure i drag myself there to study. Macdonals downstairs would be ideal, but i can't seem to bring myself to go. Damn..

My friday nights, i think i spent them on youtube, again. So that's why I've decided to pop by RCIY more often now. It's better to spend my time with friends listening about God rather than at home alone staring at my computer screen right?

Well, today's a day of reflection for school, so i guess this entry would be my reflection on the past month. (I forgot to take the reflection sheet back home. So i guess tml must chiong in school...)

Heh, looking forward to next week. School on monday and friday only. And i heard chinese results were comin out too. (cross-fingers). Really hope my oral didn't sink my grades TOO much..

Alright, that's all for now. I've gotta find a way to make myself study.

June Hols 2006

2006-06-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

Just a few minutes in the rain from all the travelling to and from school and I get a 38.4 degrees fever! Omg. I think my body's weaker than i think it is. Well, just so Sabrina doesn't complain i'm not updating:

Honestly, i've been slacking throughout this holidays. I haven't done much work; the only stuff i've done is an e-math paper. Yes, even up till today. First week was actually packed.

O'levels on Monday, CIP on tuesday, MM retreat on wed-thursday, and rashes all through till next monday. Haha. Second week, tuesday, we gave mike a surprise birthday celebration! Woo, it was to me, the best one i ever witnessed. 16 presents for his 16th birthday. I must salute Ali for the idea. Haha. Then we went to watch She's The Man. It was good. Yup. Then wednesday to saturday was spent at Luc's place. Where i was supposed to do work, but ended up lazing away like a couch potato watching TV. Third week was totally slack. Can't rmb much of what i did, except chionging a hisotry Source based a few minutes before the deadline was up, and dragonboat competition on saturday.

*Cheer up Mel, you're okay right? At least you had fun with your friends through the past year. That's more important right? SMILE!*

And here's the last week. History lessons on monday and tuesday. Heh, tuesday was funny.

Ms. MATTHEWS BROUGHT US TO PIZZA HUT FOR LUNCH! Heh. Louis, weirong, nigel, mark, jay, zheqian, and myself. Actually we initially went to the Prata place at CCAB, btu it was closed, so we cabbed down to Plaza Sing to eat pizza hut. (Ms. Matthews actually wanted to eat pizza in the first place! But dun dare say. Hoho) Well we ordered so much. Three large pizzas, 3 pitchers of pepsi, two ten-piece spicy drumlets, and a baked sausage something meal. Haha. Totalled to like $117.

Highlights of the day:
-Jay didn't know where to pay the bus fare in coins. Almost got conned into going to the back of the bus to drop the coins in. HAHA. And a shocking revelation that he only took the bus FOUR times in his life. Like, WTH.

-Ms Matthews spilled pepsi on herself. Hoho. Oh no, if any teacher is reading this, please don't tell her. Haha.

Well, in the end, though we tried to chip in on the meal, she insisted that she paid. And wouldn't tell us why!!! Mean. And we still don't know why. She's so good at changing topics. Really very pro. haha. Oh well. We'll figure out, somehow.

That's all for now. Hopefully i'll be better tml, and actually get down to doing my work. :s

Bye!
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Young Leaders Day

2006-05-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. i'm lazy to blog about today. Since jian hao and ali and probably javier are or have already blogged about it, please visit:

www.j3tflame.blogspot.com

www.jianlard.blogspot.com

www.reminiscing--.blogspot.com

for the day's events.

HAHA, why do i get the feeling they'll kill me? Hoho.

Just a story to share about today's seminar:

There was this shop owner, he was extremely successful in selling his stuff, cos he was in this area where no other shops sold the same things as him. But soon enough, two new major companies built their multistory departmental store beside his stop on both sides. Both of these buildings had big banners saying :90% SALE! and BUY 1 GET 3 FREE! banners. So he thought for awhile. And then on his signboard, he put this up.

"MAIN ENTRANCE".

Heh.

Post mid-years = Pre Chinese O levels

2006-05-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

Yay, today's a holiday for SJI. "Polling day" holiday. Haha. I don't quite get why they have to give us a holiday for it, but a day off is still a day off, so i'm happy.

Just woke up after 12 hours of sleep. Haha. Anyways, here's a post to update on what's been going on since mid year.

We haven't gotten back our papers yet, but some very stupid things i did during the exam.

Chinese Paper 1: I didn't take notice that the paper was supposed to end at 10, and rushed like mad to finish it by 9.20. THEN i looked at the board and it said, "8-10". Stunning. So in the end i wrote utter rubbish, which would be a big reason why i got 55 this time round. Not to mention Oral wasn't that fantastic either. =P

Chemistry: Just before handing up the paper, i saw this question that i missed in section C. Question C1. How the hell did i miss it?! Anyways, it was a 10 marks question, so yeah. Gone.

E- Math : I thought Maximum angle of depression was the furthest distance from the point. And thus my answer for the height of a tree was er, a few centimetres!? Dangg.

For the other subs, English was quite alright, I messed up physics, A math, and gave very indirect answers for history. Think the only ones that i did ok in were SS and Lit? =S

So yeah, Chinese O levels are coming in around one and a half weeks time. School's started "Intensive Preparations" for Sec 4s. Doing papers everyday. But somehow, i find it quite fun. Haha. It's better than just sitting around in class listening to more than half the time, Noice generated from my classmates. Yeah, at least when we have work to do, there's silence. Gosh, how am i to survive the class and come out with good grades? By God's grace? Yeah, probably that's the only way.

Haven't been to training since Sports day. My back isn't completely healed yet, but at least i'm able to move properly now. I'm eating so much, and not exercising at all, i think i'm putting on weight. Ah. But at least i got my best timing for 2.4 this year! haha. Ok, 11.21 might not be great but it's the fastest for me k.

Apart from school, I went with some of the guys from class to seoul gardern after the last day of our exams. Almeric's such a liar. When i asked him if he oculd eat alot, he asked me back what was my definition of 'alot'. So i said at least minimum of four full plates of meat. And he went, "chey". So i thought 'wow, so he CAN eat.' But that idiot ended up only eating one plate and claimed that "come seoul garden cannot eat alot, later go home stomach pain" MY ASS la pls!

So in the end i ate only three plates and the only people who were really eating were only John and I. Pathetic. Note to self: Don't eat with people who can't eat, they spoil your appetite.

Finally got to meet the peeps for RCIY for the past two weeks. It's been awhile since i went. Planned for the upcoming cycle of RCIY, and guess what! We have more people joining this year! Haha. It's starting this Friday 19th March, 7.30pm at Risen Christ. If you wanna come just gimme a call yeah. (Haha, free ad space!).

Last thursday was a very long day. Went to meet mel in orchard to shop for a watch for alan, saw a couple in orchard, but they didn't seem to fit, so we went to t.p instead. There were more there, but she still couldn't make up her mind! (and she said I was supposed to help her. Wth!?) Anyways, we eneded our search quite early, like 4 plus, and went to church at 5.30. So having nothing to do for 2 hours, she slept on the floor in the church room. Wth right. So i just stoned in there till tim came along. Haha.

That night, i was out till 1 am! Haha, doing what? Playing X-Box at Cine! After the meeting on thursday for RCIY, i was really bored since the next day was Vesak Day, so i thought the night shouldn't be wasted. Was waiting for a bus to go to luc's place to watch whatver movie he had when Marcus called and asked if we wanted to go down to town to play. I was lucky marcus had his jacket to lend me, cos the security at cine's lvl 9 was tight. Haha. They guy actually came close to our console and i was trying to cover my white shirt with the jacket completely so he couldn't see. Played this awesome game called quantum racer or something, shoot up your opponents and win the race. Haha, it entertained us for like 2hours! Ended up taking a cab, and reached home at 1am. Fun night!

Saturday was another long day. Started off with Exco meeting in school, afterwhich we went to far east to eat KFC, then by the sheer force of utter boliaoness, marcus mike jianhao and i took a train from orchard to jurong east to bukit gombak (agung went to hunt for his new phone) to meet some 433 guys to play laser quest. (initially they said it was 2 dollars for half an hour, then 3.50 for non-members, and just yesterday, i heard form jianhao that it was actually 3.50 for TEN MINUTES, and they they actually wanted to play for THIRTY MINUTES. WTH?) Lucky never play. So ended up bowling instead. I must say, 162 isn't bad for me after not playing for like 1 year plus. Hahaha!

Anyways, went to church after that for mass and then Watched MI3 with my MUM after dinner! Haha, i think it's the second movie i ever watched with my mum apart from star wars episode 2 years ago. Heh. The action in the movie wasn't bad, but i thought the storyline was a little simplistic. Yeah.

Sunday! Mothers day. Went for tuition in the afternoon and after that, bought some sunflowers for my mum. And my daniel had to stupidly copy me and buy the same thing, so we ended walking together with the same flowers in our hands, which made me feel super awkward, so i took it from him and said i'll carry it. Gosh, i mean, two guys, walking together, holding the same flower?! Weird isn't it?! Haha. So i came home, stoned around, and went to my grandma's place in the evening to celebrate mothers day for her.

My mum and i had to first go to NTUC to buy come blood cockles, then braddell to buy ngoh hiam and pohpia and char kway tiao before heading there. So many detours. Gosh. By the time we got there, the food turned cold. haha. Daddy bought a duck there, and we feasted. Sadly my grandma wasn't feeling well, think she had a cold and cough, so she slept in after dinner. I myself got a bad throat that night cos i unknowinly ate very heaty stuff for the past two days. Steak on sat night, roti prata for sun morning, herbal lamb soup for lunch, and duck and all the other stuff i mentioned above for dinner. No wonder i kena.

So Monday was a normal day, came home to sleep cos i wasn't feeling well, and yesterday, i really didn't feel like going to school. I layed in bed for around ten mins deciding whether to go. So i finally decided that i would go, and went. Stupid thing was just when i was about to reach the MRT station, i realized i didn't bring my wallet out, so i had to walk all the way back in to get it. Gosh, i was sweating like crap, my entire shirt was wet. After school on yesterday, went with WG and Javier to watch The Wild. I should've known going to the movies with WG was a mistake. The show really wasn't good. And it wasn't like i had much of a choice in avoiding it, cos even before i gave a clean "yeah ok let's watch", Wg already bought the tics. Grrrr. The cinema was totally empty when we went in, and in the end, around ten of us were inside only. Haha. SO came home after that, and slept till today.

So that's about all, seems like the longest post in a long time. Haha, yeah, good luck for chinese O's if you're taking it! Ciao~

2006-04-22T16:40:00.000+08:00

Yup, it's finally off, after three years. =)

I can once again wipe the front of my teeth without feeling the pain from my braces. And it's like so smooth! Haha. Okay, i sound deprived don't i?

Watever.

Anyways, sports day! It was a really painful day. As in, literally. I dunno how bad i sprained or whatever my back, but i can't even walk properly now. Gonna see a sinseh later, really do hope it gets better soon.

Some surprising stuff on the competition. 433 won the class plaQue. o.o
We were all expecting 435, and yes, all of them are very disappointed.

Fintan only won house champion for sec 4s! And yet we beat the rest?! what does that mean? SEC FOUR FINTAN OWNS. That's all there is to it. Haha, don't u agree Jian hao?!

Hoho, anyway, back to my back. er. right.
Fok asked me to go for competition today! Wth. I can't walk and u want me to throw. Think again man. I've been pushing myself for so long and never got down to resting properly. And thus, this irritating-turned paralysing injury. Seriously it sucks. And i've still gotta go live up to my coach's expectations this final year.

On to academics, Mid year's just two weeks more and i've not studied. I'm so dead.

Okay, off to church. Cya.

April Fool's Day!

2006-04-02T21:27:00.000+08:00

went to study at JURONG COUNTRY CLUB on saturday with jian hao, nicky, ali and seren! It was some ulu-ulu CC but with a nice quiet reading room to study in.

So, after lunch at macs, jian hao left his phone unattended at the table, so we took it without telling him and went off. ><

"Self-discovery is the best, and ignorance is bliss" Hoho.

Didn't take him long to notice though. Well Done L@rd.

So we spent 2-6plus studying in the room which air-con was erratic, going on and off as it pleased.

Things that i learnt: 1) Ali's a SLACKER!!!
2) Seren's handwriting is like WOW so nice.
3) Nicky's more nerdy than she looks.
4) Jian Hao can actually finish an art piece amongst all the crapping.
5) I can finish work only when there are people to look at me finish it.

Woohoo. I did my work.

And i stepped into uncharted territories! Er, for me at least. ahah.

Crunchy Carrot! The food there was good actually. Haha. Satisfying dinner.

And JIAN HAO BOGGLED MY MIND FOR A GOOD HALF AN HOUR!!! Omg. I salute him. Haha.

It was a fun day! Thank you people who were there! =)

Totally for ali.

2006-03-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

Lol, i decided to blog cos ALI asked me to.

So this entry dedicated to you la. Haha. I COULD write it in the tag board, but nvm la, this counts as an ENTRY. lol

Next time you going home late or anything and haven't eaten, or u KNOW you are going home late and you are having dinner outside, msg me la, then i can go eat with u also.

YOUR TURN TO BLOG.

Da Camp!

2006-03-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

I'm lazy to write alot... I've lost that passion for blogging. Lol.

Anyways, just wanted to let the world know that SJI-IJ Combined Workshop rocks ok!

And that SJI's FIRST invest rocked also!

You put the two together and you get TWO rocks!

Haha, no la, i'm lame.

But yeah, they're both two of the "firsts'" that SJI prefectorial board had.

Oh, no forgetting those who (Mainly) made it possible,
Germs, Nicky, Seren, Jocelyn, Joan, MJ,Ali!
Agung, Mike, Fish, L@rd , Myself.

Oh yeah, we pulled it off! All the stress and panicking was worth it!

.

2006-03-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

Why i'm blogging even after saying i have nothing to blog about nowadays?

Because i'm not happy.

It's interesting how things change so quickly. I remembered feeling that everything was going on well just last week. But how dramatically things have changed.

First of all, I just wanna say that i regret that John got hurt. But I have none for my actions. If they wanna put the blame on me, so be it. I'm prepared to take all the crap they throw at me. Pay the bills, take me out of Exco, whatever man. I don't care. My conscience is clear.

It's just sad for them because as people having a third person's view, they don't understand how i felt at that time, or what went on at that time, and continue on to pass comments and judgment.

So be it.

It's comforting though, to know that i have my friends who pick me up from this shithole.
Thanks everyone. Thanks alot.

Then comes the problem with you. I've been giving in for a long time now. But i feel it's unfair.

I'm just praying you'll be more understanding, and not flare up so quickly.

It's lent, so go reflect.

2006-01-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

Stupid stuff in my nose still doesn't wanna go away. It's making my head hurt too. Damn dumb.

Chinese New Year! Yay? I can't help but think of the e math project and history test which is due straight after it.

Oh wells, who cares. lol.

Tomorrow will take care of itself. =)

2006-01-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

Finally, all the orientation stuff for sec 1s has ended. It's bitter sweet.

It marks the end of duties in school as a PSF, i mean, official duties. Though to me, Peer Support never ends, because we're still here.
But i must say, it is a wonderful thing to be in Peer Support. Though we face shit like quarrels between friends, complains about people not working, the overall feeling you get is actually very fufuilling.

The sad things aside, i'm glad it's over. It's one less worry on my mind.

Now to go face the other things in school.

Namely:

Studies - Might be bold to say this, but i really would like a single digit for O levels. But having a new set of teachers such as cough and cough isn't really helping. As well as the class itself. Only thing i can do is pray they'll wake up their ideas and realize that it's important this year.

Track and Field - Yes, we'll make them eat dust this year. But sadly my back isn't helping. Pain is starting to come back slowly. And i don't know whether to buy a new pair of spikes for my last year, cos my old one's breaking apart.

SSVP - I really do hope that more people will join, and not join for the sake of doing it, but because they are driven by passion. It's really no point seeing them like lifeless people tending to old folks. It just seems so wrong. Mdm Lee isn't taking charge this year either, so it's gonna be hard. Someone please save us.

MM - With mr chua in charge, there's no problem. Except i pray that gabriel will curb his childishness.

FINTAN HOUSE - Have to win this year. Just have to. But things aren't looking too good, with lawrence sec ones cheering so strongly, and fintan not having any trackers at all, except marcus.

Prefects - The thing that takes up the most of my stress. Who ever thought it'd be so difficult being in the exco. The flame of passion that drove me for the last three years, it's slowly, being extinguished.

Well, that's about all my life revolves around now, i haven't been to RCIY for about 1 plus month? It's really sad. I miss them all so much. And Ada's leaving soon. Sad. I just hope this year would be more fun. Grant us more people? Please?

Lick my shoe!

2006-01-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

I just remembered something as i was thinking of the Sec 1s coming in.

It was when I was in sec one. I'm not sure if any of you guys remember this, but i recall the time when we were all in the LT, and then the Peer support ppl told us a story, and it ended with " LICK MY SHOE!!" Heh. It's been three years since then. Amazing how time flies.

I'm in the middle of attempting to present some decent answers for history right now, but the thought just came across my mind. And i decided to blog about it. Quite random actually. Lol.

But yeah, it reminded me of my sec one days, which i totally miss. And it also reminded me that i'm sec four now. One year left in my number one school. So sad. Ah, i'll treasure this last year.

Happy New Year guys. May your hopes for the year come true and resolutions hold out.

Hey luc, shit man, i couldn't keep mine. Waha. Shhh..

Christmas time

2005-12-27T09:38:00.000+08:00

I got a flu and sore throat the day before christmas eve. Dang.

But it didn't really quite stop me from eating all the chocolate and deep fried stuff. =)

Haha. Didn't party as much this time round. People came at very varying times, ranging from 3pm-8pm. So there wasn't alot of people in the house. I didn't invite any friends over this year as well. Yeah, not even terence. I felt that it'll be funny if i had them over for a party meant for the family. And neither did i reserve a day for friends to come over because i didn't have the time to go plan things.

Yup. I spent christmas eve wrapping presents! Lol. I bought all my presents so late that i didn't even wrap them. So i woke up around 11, watch gransazers, sonic x, then went to wrap.

Went for midnight mass. I finally saw Val. Yayness. And she finally got her present which was supposed to be given to her since a month ago.

Ah, the cantata was alright. I thought i felt kinda weird seeing them dance around the altar. Haha. Oh, gabriel rod was dancing. Lol. couldn't stop laughing at him. But the songs were nice.

After mass went to godparents place for makan. Luc, i'm so sorry we didnt go back!! I mean, we really wanted to, but we got held up by all the talking and stuff.. SORRYY!!!

reached home at 4 am. SLept till 10 am. Woke up, watch gundam seed destiny, then got requested by my mum to go down to hilton hotel to pick up the ham and beef.

I was seriously feeling damn sick and tired. But aiya, wth. So i took a bath, went down there, picked it up, and came back. THe whole procedure was dumb. Took like 1 and a half hour just to go there and come back.

So anyway, ate the food back at home, and i TOOK A NAP while the guess were still here. LOL. I was really very shittily tired. So after a glass of wine, i came into my room to sleep. Woke up aroung 6, slept for 1 1/2 hour. SO ate alittle more, then headed to ivan's place for the stayover.

Reached there around 9.30. They were DOTAing as usual. I'm telling you they were dumb. Suicide bombing their enemies. Dy, zl, ht, lucas and ivan. Retarded. Had a beer with ivan's dad, he talked some really senseful and logical stuff which i can't remember now! Sian. It was really philosophical and it really knocked some sense into me. Haha. Must be the beer that made me forget.

Anyways, stupid ivan decided to open his 1000 pieces puzzle for us to complete. Wa lau eh. So we spent a few hours piecing it. Very little progress.

Watched 40 year old virgin and european gigolo after we got tired of the puzzle. I'm telling you the shows were so retarded and disgusting. Lol.

Took sparky out for a night walk! The pierce reserviour trail. Totally dark. Only had our hand phones and a torch i brought to guide us. Haha. Kinda relieved the Ace camp night walk. VEry nice. Ivan was grabbing me to tight. Haha. And his brother was always complaining it was dark.

So after that, we went back, did a little more of the puzzle, and finally all fell asleep at 6 plus am. Haha.

I woke up to the noise of them playing marvel vs capsom 2. Oh, i won most of the matches. Even after i just woke up. Haha. Just anyhow mosh buttons.

So yeah, went for breakfast at the casuarina prata. And seriously, as always, the service was bad. they had so much business that they could afford to tell you to wait when you wanted to order. Haha. SO yeah, ate there, went back, i played a little gunbound with zl's acct. I WON A RED WAND! woohoo. lol. THen went home.

I lived a pig's lifestyle on boxing day. Went home, bathe, slept. Woke up at 1, ate a huge spegetthi lunch, went back to sleep till 8. woke up, at dinner, watch tv till 11, slept.

And here we are. Today. Going for meeting later, and party at mike's house tonight.

My throat still hurts and my nose is still blocked. Homework undone, and six more days to school.

God help me. Amen.

A new Godsister!?

2005-12-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

Two more weeks to Christmas! Three more to school. Bleah.

Seven touched Chinese compositions, A-math homework, and i just found out that there was english and history, which i obviously didn't know cos i didn't get the homework paper!

Shopped the whole afternoon and night away yesterday. Very tiring. Went to John Little and bought a pair of jeans, two shirts, two pairs of socks, and two very smooth undies. (lucas, it's almost like ur levi's underwear material. lol)

Was there till 5. Then from 5-10pm was shooping for my mum's cosmetics, and bags and sunglasses. we were looking for my mum's exclusive-christmas-time-only Loreal moonlight princess, went to almost every shop that we thought would have it, but to no avail. Some had only one of the two she wanted. Bleah. (steph, i walked almost the same route as i walked with you that day, maybe longer..)

Yes, and she brought me to Womensecret and made me give comments on bra's and panties, thought me the different sizes, eg. Uk 10 = US 36 etc.. Made me pick up those that she dropped and stuff like that i would never ever do myself. Lol.

Oh and i went to redeem that starbucks thingy! Steph, it's just plain coffee black. Lol.

End of the day, we reached home at 11.30.

Today!

Went for tuition just now. I feel like a total idiot. I went there one hour early, thinking tuition was at 9am. So i went up, and saw the place closed. For a moment i thought that there was no lesson, so i decided to go for mass. But just as i was taking the lift down, i remembered that it was supposed to start at 10am. Argh!!

So i went to mac donalds, ordered a coffee, and sat there to finish my undone homework. I didn't know they had re-fill for coffee! Lol. The ah-ma there kindly helped me to top up. Yayness.

So while i was there, i saw this man sitting alone. Soon he was joined by this lady. At first i thought nothing of it, till i noticed that they were just sitting there staring at each other.

Then the man stretched out his hand to touch the lady's face, but she pulled away.

That was when i realised that it was a relationship on the rocks. Dang. I wrote a short prayer down on my foolscape and hope it was answered. "Lord, please help them to work things out."

Then after a little talking they left, lady first, followed by man.

I sure do hope my prayer was answered.

Anyways, i downed the remaining coffee, asked for a cup of water, and left for tuition.

I think i must've been really blind, cos Yin Ting was there and i didn't notice till i saw her name on the attendence list?!

But it's a good feeling to know that you know at least ONE person in the class. :s

So anyways, i'm heading off to Christ The King for My soon-to-be Godsister. I just found out yesterday la! Ah..

i dreamt..

2005-12-07T18:13:00.000+08:00

I just had a very very weird dream.

It was like a combinations of real life issues, and surreal thoughts.

For example, i dreamt of steph and pearlyn finally making up, of the very bad living conditions of India, the slumps and all, of a whole platoon of indian kids, wearing military uniforms.

I even asked why they were doing it, and the leader replied that it was because no one could protect them, even the police, so they had to protect themselves. Then i got really pissed after hearing that.

I dreamt of them being reported on Singapore news, how they were training and stuff.

Then we drove past these condominium and privare estate where i saw this guy parking his car with a remote control. (wth)

I also dreamt of going to play arcade with some of my friends, (yeah, india and singapore came together i guess.

Then came this really cool part where i was attending church, with my family and the RCIY peeps.

I even saw Godma and Godpa there. =)

Funny thing was i had a phone call before mass, then when i went in, i was looking for where the RCIY peeps were. But i saw that there wasn't much space there, so i sat with my family. Haha, i rmb seeing mel's usual reaction of when i dun go seat with her and rese kinda thing. Lol. Damn funny! :D

And i'm telling u, the chair in the church that i dreamt of had cushions! Even the armrests were soft! Omg.

Now the really interesting part. During the mass, i met the devil. Seriously. I was on this bridge made of wooden planks, which was actually the center walkway of the hall, and she (female devil) was calling forth stuff to pull me down, and even did something to me which i can't explain.

So i was like praying really really hard, our father... hail mary.. and guess what? It WORKED. I saw mary coming to save me! Jesus too! haha. BEst part was when i saw the angel michael. I took his sword and jabbed it straight into the devil. Cool man!

And after that it went back to playing soccer. Hahaha!! Anti climax. And i woke up. Satistfied from a very nice nap. =)

2005-12-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

Decided to change back to this template. Somehow i still like it this way. Lol.

Anyways, haven't blogged for long. People like Javier are complaining.

Well, i guess one reason why i don't feel like blogging nowadays is because i let the events acumulate, and when i wanna blog about them, it's just to much, and i feel lazy to go and think of everything that had happened.

But you can't blame me right, i dun wanna spend too much time blogging either.

So anyways, just to keep you all updated on what has happened since i last blogged.

After coming back from India, I had my RCIY camp.

One hell of a camp i would say. So many things happened. All in one night. Must've been one of the worst nights i had in my entire life. But somehow, by God's grace, we managed to sort most stuff out. Can only pray that those that still linger on will somehow get resolved.

Well, some fun facts at camp:

I had to go proclaim to the entire neighbourhood that i was in love. As in shoutout loud, "I"M IN LOVE", and had to tell them who i had a crush on and so forth. But i guess it can't beat Cindy who claimed that she didn't know how to do a pole dance, but ended up like a professional. haha.

Too bad she's leaving.. :(

Anyways, I realise that playing both Marcus's role, and my own role is no easy thing to do.

Gotta like, play two person's role. But somehow i pulled through. Lol.

Well, then after RCIY camp was MM retreat. Well, it was actually just a sleepover. Schedule wasn't very fixed either. Flexible. Had loads of fun singing. Haha. Attended morning mass on the second day of the retreat. But upon reaching Holy Spirit Church, i went straight to the toilet to shit. Haha. Yeah, stomach still not well.

So after that i went into the chapel where mass was held, opened the gigantic door, and saw the priest staring at me. I was thinking, "oh shit! It's not my fault.. i'm not late for mass.. i just went to shit.." and quickly found a place and sat down.

So yeah, that was monday and tuesday.

Went for training at East Coast on wednesday. My wonderful coach told me "Macdonalds". So i went to macs at east coast after a grueling 1 and a half hour of travelling. Call him so many times to no avail. When he finally picked up, guess what he said.

"We're past macdonals already."

"Ok coach, are u like, after victoria jc?"

"Yeah, way past there"

(me thinking) "Omg.. shit.. damn.. that's like.."

(me saying)" Oh ok, er, i think u all better start first. cos i'm quite far away"

"No no, we'll wait for you, just jog here now"

"er.. ok."

And so i did. Jogged with my bag, and walked, and jogged.

All the way till the open air hawker center.

Half dead.

Then they were like, "yay, roderick's here, now let's start our 5 km run".

Jaw dropping. They still can joke, saying i finished warm up. Yeah, right, 2.5 km of warm up. But somehow, amazingly, i completed the 5km run without much problem. Not that i'm boasting please.

I think the air at the beach side helps alot. Well, for me at least. I can run like 5 k there no prob. But i die in school while running 2.4. Funny right.

Well, yeah, then thursday was basically a stonage session at home.

Friday! Weights training. Dunno wth is wrong between kia boon and jeremiah. So after that played soccer under the hot sun. almost got cooked.

Went to orchard after that. Supposed to meet the IJ prefects for meeting. But only seren and nicole turned up, besides marcus and i.

Details cannot be told here. sorry people.

So after that went to walk walk with seren, cos she was busy waiting for ali to call her, only to find out that ali's bat was flat. Sadness. Well, at least she got home by then.

Met dy zl ht lucas ad ht's cousin for seoul garden. Then came back.

A fufilling week i would say.

It's december! Christmas is coming! But before that, time to study. Haha. I think i'm gonna be a nerd next year.

Not a pure nerd though. :p

Next year will be: Studies, CCA, Church. Simple as that. :)

2005-11-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

I'm back from India! Woo, bitter sweet feelings.

I was so happy to take a plane again. DIdn't really care that it was AirIndia. Just wanted to be in the sky. Was so excited. Woohoo. And i actually didn't mind us getting dirouted for refuel, cos it just means i can experience another take off! ahaha. Had the window seat by the wings, got to check out the flaps and stuff. Ultra cool.

In India, we were treated so 'Highly" there. High life.

5 start hotels, warm bath everyday, air con, nice bed, and wonderful room mate, with the ever present game of dai di. what more could i ask for. hehe.

Visited several forts. Really aincient, come breaking here and there, but still, it seems like everything was maintained. I rmb asking michael how do they actually penetrate the fort, and he replied:

"Using their dicks."

Right.

Anyways, there was the really horny king who had 12 wives and looked at them dress up from above, and also their very cool cooling system dudring the summer, where the temperature could go up to 50 degrees celcius.

didn't get to ride elephants though, they were sent for tests cos one threw a guy off it's back a few weeks before we went. Fatal.

Saw the Taj Mahal. Yayness. World wonder.

Whole thing was made of marble. VEry cooling.

While resting there, there was this small indian girl who was waving and smiling at me. haha. Girls said she had a crush on me. Haha. Damn cute. i took a picture of her. hope it turns out ok.

Bus rides were very long. 5 hours. haha. needed to piss alot of times. felicia had motion sickness at first. poor thing. Jane knocked her head like 40 times throughout the whole trip. lol.

Well, then came the homestay.

first night, had a very bad stomach ache, lasted through the night. DIdn't sleep much at all. Only time i could sleep was for the pain to just knock me out. Held on from 1 am to 5.30 am before i woke eng wei up. wanted to let him sleep first.

But serioously, it hurt alot. I was moaning through the night. you can ask eng wei. Painful like crap.

but it got a lil better in the day.

I was totally zombied that day.

Had to play soccer match still.

Lost it.

But it cured my pain.

haha.

then after that went to shop.

second day, went touring again, then watched harry potter in india. then shopping. bought a pair of reebok shoes. very light. damn nice.

then last day, sports day, ran 4x100. got third. lol.

then plane again. oh gosh.

i feel lazy to blog full details.

just want to let you all know that i enjoyed every moment of it. ok, maybe ecxept the pain.

yeah, tired. gonna sleep. nitez.

2005-11-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

woo, today was long. Travelled so much.

Here's the route i took today.

Home --> 851 --> 132 --> CJC hostel --> 132 ( bus driver made scholars pay adult fare, held up the bus, passenger not happy.) --> Far East ( one scholar forgot to come down, PANIC, lucky he came back ) --> orchard MRT --> train --> bugis --> Raffles hospital --> bugis junction --> train --> orchard ( Half the group walked off without me, PANIC, lucky they called back) --> 105 --> SJI --> 153 --> Toapayoh --> train --> khatib --> home --> Bathe, nap --> 855 --> 163 --> church --> 163 --> aunt's house.

Ah.. i spent like 12 times EZ link today. Incredible.

Okay, here's what i was supposed to do. As mr Tan put it, "just bring them to raffles hospital and bring them back."

Obviously he missed out alot of middle parts. Like, they were having a check up there, and where i was supposed to go INSIDE the hospital and where to for luch.

Haiz, but somehow, i managed to poull it off together with Hsiang Wei and Yi Wen.

Yup, that's today, thursday. now gotta go rush a report on OBS for my teacher. Heh.

2005-11-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

Somehow, my internet is on it's normal speed for once. I'm glad. Now i can blog. After repeated requests from SOME ppl.

So yeah, i'm lazzy to blog my whole experience for ACE camp though. It's basically quite stessing.

To put it short,

I made ppl eat chilli by tricking them with jessica alba, got frozen by wind and rain and finally got the school pledge right. heh.

After ACE would be PSLTC. Really Interesting camp. I mean, now that we're the one running it.
But i must say, the PSLs need to be more enthu.. I mean, i felt really weird when they didn't respond. And energizers weren't fun to them. Dissapointment. Gotta think of how to make them enthu. But still, it was a good experience.

So anyway, i'm heading for india for a school trip from the 13th to 20th. November's pretty full.

20th Is Confirmation. Woo. Fast. I'm not sure if i'm prepared.

Oh and i lost my phone. Heartache. Got stolen actually. Whoever the guy is, i hope he really realised what he did.

Found out St. Michael's might be renamed St Joseph's Institutiton Jr. Haha, So cool!

Ah... i'm so lazy to blog after having not done so for so long. I guess, i'll do occasional updates from now on.
Oh, if you're reading this, send me a msg with your name, cos i lost all my contacts. thanks ya?

2005-11-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

My com's pretty screwed up. I'll blog when i get it fixed.

OBS

2005-10-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'm back. A little bit darker, a little bit stronger, abit more tired, and a whole lot more satistfied.

"A journey of a lifetime", that was what i saw on the OBS sign as i got there on monday. And indeed, it lived up to that phrase. The entire camp was really fun, exciting, challenging, and fufilling. There's just many many words to describe the camp. What i liked about how they ran the camp was that they gave us freedom. Quite alot of it. We could decide on things like the time to meet, how much time we needed to eat, bathe, etc. THEY LET US BATHE N EAT EVERYDAY AT OUR OWN TIME. I mean, where'd u get that in a school camp? Especially with SJI's sadistic 1.5 min bathing time. i'd rather just jump into the pool if we had one.

Anyways, as most of us felt at first, we were reluctant to go for it cos it was just the week after our FYE. But it all changed just after one day.

I guess i was quite lucky to have Javier, Benjamin and Elson in my group. I had a certain level of comfort to start off with. Naturally, i shared the tent with them. But my other watchmates were very nice too, well, erm, most.

De Gama
Instructor: Andy
Watch
Jason Salim
Eric
Brian
Samuel
Jun Jie
Eugene
Jeffery
Gavin
Kenneth
Denzel
Elson
Javier
Benjamin
And me.

First day.

Travelled there, talked alot about seasickness, saw the instructor ( First impression: He's Funky, and i was right!) Got to know the watch. Volunteered to be food IC. (to ration the food)

Next,

Kayaking. Seems like every outdoor camp has it. Heh. It was fun. Finally got to do the campsize drill after three years. It rained on my ex-class in lower sec, for both years, so we didn't get to do it. was with javier, we caped like FOUR times.

Once during practice, second when we were JUST BOARDING the kayak, third when the instructor told us to, forth was a SABOTAGE BY EUGENE AND JEFFERY!! Grr. Javier took forever to get up after the third capsize.

But it was a good way to start the camp. refreshing sea water too.

Took a bath after that. At our own time. ( You see how shiok it is?) Then learned how to pitch a tent, way up on a hill, the highest point in the camp, and had dinner. Maggie Mee with cut mushrooms and hotdogs. Yummy. Lol.

Slept around 11 plus.

Day Two

Had a horrible night, wasn't used to the hard ground and stuff yet, not forgetting how Javier took up so much space, and the annoymous snoring.

I'm telling u Javier needs a needle in his ass to wake up.

Anyways, they let us catch about 7 hours of sleep! Woohoo! In school camps, you'll be lucky to get 6.

Woke up, unpitched the tent, got ready for the day. Learnt about Belaying. Andy said we were doing something all the other watched weren't doing, turned out to be abseiling, down a cliff. Was around 15-20m. Damn shiok i tell u. Haha, i just tried to drop myself down. The figure eight was so hot it could burn skin when i reached below.

Took a bath, ate, packed for next day's Land Expedition.

Then came nightwalk. Walked through the forest, under the moonlight, to this open area, where we caught a slight glimpse of fireflies around the trees. I finally understand why they were always potrayed so beautifully. It was a feast for the eyes when u could see them flying around. After that, we were told we would be walking back to camp alone through the same dark forest. Waha. So soon enough, my turn came.

Just about ten or so meters in, i could see this figure of an old man sitting down on watever, infront by the right. (Other's saw it too okay!??) I swear it was freaky. Walked up beside it, found out they were three leaves. Phew. I wasn't totally scared by that, but i was when i heard extra footsteps behind me. Cos my walking pace had this fixed sound, but when i lifed up my left foot, there was an extra scratch on the sand. That was when i was really scared, and took a swift look to the back, and hurried forward. I was so glad when i saw orange light.

After that, Andy tempted us with a ghost story about the path we walked, promised to tell us on the night of day three, so we waited eagerly.

then, had supper, and we went to sleep.

Day Three

Land Ex. Trekked north eaast towards the quarry and temple. Almost got lost, i was really pissed at one point, but we somehow managed to get to the place. Andy brought us to the quarry and once again tempted us with the story. We were dying to find out.

Made our way to Camp 1, were it was truly, to us at that moment of time, paradise. Shagged and with our shoulders aching from carrying our tents and backpacks, we rested in the shades, ate our lunch, and got ready for the Inverse Tower.

My arms could've broken off. I paired up with Elson, cos Javier's arm couldn't take climbing. We were tied together by this cord, which limited the distance between us, and had to climp this tower full of non-holdable staples with two e-trails. (looped ropes tied to a carabenna which u use to hook on the staples). Cos my pole was really unclimable, i hopped unto Elson's side. I really thought i wouldn't be able to finish it cos i was hanging by my arms most of the time.

But somehow, we managed to finish it, the sense of satistfaction was supreme. Plus we had dinner in the canteen there. Heavenly food, as compared to what we had for the pass two days. Was briefed about the next day's sea expedition, and though tired and shagged, we still wanted to hear Andy's story. hehe.

So we went, by the jetty, in the dark, where he told us the story we were dying to hear. It was utterly shocking. If you every want to hear it, ask me. And i'll garauntee you a shock of you life. He made us trek to the temple just for his story. Wa lau eh, and yet we made it back in time. Pro rite.

So yeah, after hearing the shocking ghost story he had for us, we went to sleep. Like PIGS. Wasted from the day's activities. I had a good night's sleep. heh.

Day Four
Sea Ex. Woke up early to pack our stuff, prepare our gear. Ate breakfast, then went to shit. Damn shiok.. the toilet very clean. haha. We were to kayak round the whole Pulau Ubin. Quite incredible rite? So we were to form a diamond formation, and i was the starboard marker. Had to make sure ppl were 50m away from land or any objects at the right side. Partner was Wei Rong.

So we headed out. And soon, the port side marker capsized. Wth? lol. The one and only to cap in the sea ex. Dunno what he was doing. Haha. Anyways, we paddled like mad ppl, taking occasional rests, for water, food, and wating for laggers to catch up. Lucky for us, it waas cloudy and the tide was in our favor. Bent aroung the eastern side and came to this small island for lunch. I could almost kiss the sand. Muched down all kinds of biscuits and nuts, and an apple. Then got out to sea soon after. Second half, Wei Rong died on me. Ahhh.... worst still, i had to kayak in a zig zag manner to keep ppl in, plus it was difficult to keep the kayak straight. Seriously.

My arms carmped up towards the end, cos i was paddleling alone for about 2/5 the entire journey. (which is alot ok?! total distance is like 22km or so). But we made it anways. Thank God.

Super happy, supper shiok, supper shagged. Washed the kayaks, brought our stuff to our stores, and now we had to clean it and pack it. This was when i got really pissed. Some people just had to be self-centered and carried only stuff that BELONGED TO THEM. Ask them carry a little more, they will go like, "What the hell? I already washed my kayak just now!".

Yeah, washed YOUR kayak, i did like 5 or more. F***. I already did alot for the pass few days, carrying extra food, preparing the rations, making sure everyone wasn't going hungry, and i get this shit after 5.5 hours of kayaking. My legs were gone, my arms were done. And i had to carry two bloody heavy backpacks and two tents about 800 m uphill to the store from the jetty. WTF? Each bag was about 10 kg, and each tent around 5. It's a shitload of stuff to carry after kayaking.

"I already did this and that" Piss off man.

I guess Elson was really Pissed with a particular someone too. I mean, who wasn't. Food stunner, self-centered, ego. Everything was ME MYSELF AND B****. Go figure.

I shant talk more on this. I'm was just really tired and given more shit.

Ate alot of food that night, cos we had leftovers, pitched out tents, slept like pigs, again.

Day five

Going home time. Bitter sweet emotions. Bought a shirt and a collar pin for keepsake. As we got on the boat back, i was thinking of how soldiers were looking back on the place they fought their missions while being evacuated. I was feeling that way. It was this, peaceful, memorial feeling within, to know that THAT was WHAT happened, and I was PART of it. Nuerotic, or soemthing like that.

I would give a perfect ten for Andy, our instructor, as well as the camp, seriously. The best one ever.

"A journey of a lifetime".

Quite long.

2005-10-07T02:26:00.000+08:00

Yup, exams are over, finally.

I guess i've been neglecting my blog ever since i last posted. Heh.

Oh well, many things happened throughout the weeks,

Really hilarious stuff, and some sad stuff.

First off, i think, i won't be getting fantastic results, due to several subs,

like A-math, which, i did about half the paper, and half of what i did would be wrong.

And physics, where they spammed kinematics at us, and that was the one topic i suck at.

Not forgetting chemistry, which i just kinda, did it with common sense and lower sec knowledge.

Then there is also history, which i mugged like at the most a day and a half before the paper.

Chinese paper was really difficult too, i bet most of us just tikam our answers. It's really crappy.

However bad, there's also the subs which i think i did ok.

For example, Social studies. Spent hours on this one. I guess it sorta paid off, cos i wrote my first essay in like 7 mins?

And lit, where i finished 4 out of five parts in 1 hr. And stoned for 40 mins cos i didn't understand the 5th question. Ah.. i hope the other parts will save me.

And E-math! I knew how to do the paper! But yes, as always, careless mistake, pointed out by wei rong, think minus about 4 marks for that.

Apart from the papers, i finally found the ppl whom i can study effectively with. and those i cannot at the same time. Yes, it's a big difference.

And guess what?

The school library isn't such a bad place to study after all, except they friggin dun wanna on the air con sometimes. Bleah.

Going home with deyong is fun. Haha. We always see who's bus comes first, then suan the other guy. Usually i would lose, cos his buses come so often. But whaddaya know, for the exam period, i won! WOohoo!

There's this really hilarious incident that made me laugh so hard the ppl at the bus stop were staring at me.

It goes like this:

Dy's buses came, (i thought i loss), and he went towards the 980, which was really packed, so i saw that the 167 behind was empty, and told him about it.
So he walked back to the 167, and stood there. I was wondering what he was doing, just standing there like a dimwit. Then the busses, both 980 and 167 drove off without him.

I burst out laughing.

I remember it o so vivdly!

The scene of him just looking at the driver, and the driver just going off. haha.

And guess what, my bus came shortly after that, and inconclusion, I WON! Woohoo!

yup. that really got me hard at the bus stop.

so, i've been playing alot on my com lately, yeah, till times like now, 2.40 am.
But who cares, can sleep late anyways. lol.

spent the last few days with dy zl and javier at northpoint. We like, walked it, totally.
Especially with dy. I went there two days in a row with him, visiting the same shops over again.
Haha, lifeless duo no?

Went to watch corpse bride. Honestly, i didn't think much of it, initially.
But i've got to admit that the plot was good.
What i didn't enjoy were the stick like ppl and the irritating songs that they sing.
But other than that, the lovey dovey storyline was, somewhat, like chicken soup for the soul.
Haha.

So yeah, that's about it. Sorry for not blogging so long. I just felt lazy to type.

Take care, you who are hurt and tortured by life. God has his plans. Just wait and see. Dun do everything yourself. It's too much. See you soon.

2005-09-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

School's re-opening.

Hang in there people!

Just a month more to go.

It'll be worth it.

206'04: Chalet? Ok? Ok? Work for it!
Val: Starbucks! Cheer up!
Luc: You know what's awaiting you. ^^ Good luck for O's.
Steph: Streaming is important. Work hard sister!
Mike: The ROOM awaits us.
323: Winning eleven and all those yeah? Lol.
PSFs: PSLTC! Woohoo!

Gambette!

Will not blog till after exams. See you soon guys, and girls.

Er, and blog. Lol.

God Bless.

2005-09-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

I didn't really do much for the past few days, in terms of studying. More of playing games.. hmm.. on the road to dooms day.

Oh wells... i guess school re-opening is not such a bad thing. At least i'll have motivation to stick in the school library to study.

Before school ended, i've got some news about the prefects. Some... worrying news. Guess that'll have to be settled at a later time. Hope i remember it though.

Didn't think i did well for English Essay. Shouldn't have read teh stupid Muse the day before. It locked up my thinking. Couldn't expand ideas and be creative. Argh, damn, no more reading next time.

Hope i did better for compre. I somehow expected monkeys to come out again. It's true. Just before the paper came, i was thinking about mokeys coming out. Yeah, up to u to believe.

Anyways, i'm sorta looking forward to get the exams over and done with now. OBS too. Doesn't sound fun at this point of time. Lol. But i wonder if they'll ask me to go for ACE camp. haha, i didn't submit the form. :p

To the troubled one of this week:
Things will get better. Just keep that in mind ok? Take care.

2005-09-05T10:53:00.000+08:00

Officially graduated Peer Support Facilitator. (PSF)

Comm: Spirits.
Members: Agung, Michael, Wang Guan, Nigel, Javier, Jing Han, Jason, Brendan, and ME!
Teacher in charge: Mr Alvin Chua.

Yayness!

Retreat was so fun. Had alot of freedom to do stuff, unlike other camps.

Learnt TWO NEW GAMES! Muahaha. Might not seem much, but seriously, it helps when oragnizing camps. U don't want to be playing the same old games again and again.

Also leant a whole lot of new insights on peer supporting. Things and experiences that we didn't get to enquire being a psl.

Attending, listening, questioning.

Three important things. First two are still comprehendeble, but the "questioning" part is difficult.

It's not as easy as it seems. Trust me. I've yet to fully practice it properly.

We played soccer too! With Mr Chua and Wong included! Muahaha. Spirits rockSs, we won the matches overall.

But i have to comment, Mr Wong is a ferocious player!! lol. He's very fast and aggressive sia. Next time sports fiesta can use him. Muahhaahha.

Dinner at the Long Beach! Omg.. yum yum.

Then after a night session and reflections by Mr Ang, it was bedtime.

Omg, Eng wei sorta freaked me out la.

He suddenly shouted, "Aiya, why didn't i do that arh?!" in the middle of the night while sleeping.

I woke up and was like, waving into his face, "oi, u awake not...."

The he just went silent.

Lol. I laughed and went back to sleep.

And we all laughed when i told them about it in the morning. Haha.

Got our shirts finally! Graduation Tee. HHaha. Took pictures, and finally said goodbye after a few songs.

But yes, Mr Chua, Mr Wong, and Mr Ang made this wonderful camp possible, and did a super well job at it.

Not to mention all of us too! We rock!

Spsfs will be missed. =)

Link to photos! (those from my phone only.. with 1 from wg's blog..)
http://roderick.shutterfly.com/action/?a=8AbMmzhw3cN2IO&notag=1

2005-08-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

Wishing all Teachers, including ALL who we learn something from, a very Happy Teachers Day!

Well, i guess the teachers were quite satistfied and happy with what we did in school.

But then i question, was that how the school really felt? or some individuals who feel that way, and want to show their gratittude sincerly?

For all i know, most of the cards sent in were of sincere hearts. Their messages were all directed to the same grateful feeling in them. But it was heartening to see that there were cards where effort was evidently visible.

While sorting out the cards, we came across this message who went out to a particular teacher, "i hope you won't be so biased". I mean, why would u voice this out, on a cards meant to affirm someone?

Sadly, we had to cut that particualr section out of the card, for we felt it was really wrong.

Stayed back from monday to wednesday trying to get everything done.

And finally, it has all paid off.

Credit goes to Jonathan, Wang Guan, Lucas, Gabriel Tan, for blowing the balloons and decorating the staff room.

Especially Michael, who ahs worked oh-so-hard for this occasion.

The EXCO too! Yup. We did it! Yayness!

And last but not least, those of you in the school who really put ur heart into writing that small piece of card. Without you all, it really wouldn't have been possible.

Aside from that, song dedications this year wasn't really much of a success. Cos it was a rather last minute thing. But i must say michael did a fairly good job in handling the matter. He was really stressed with everything for teachers day. Songs, cds, cards, deco.. everything. Yup.

So here's one for Michael Ee: Take a good rest, and be ready to work again! Lol. Dun do that! Yes, i mean that.

Today's mass was nice. I mean, I sang, and yeah, i enjoyed it. But the stupid rosney (or howeva u spell it) was pissifying. I told him the mike was too soft, and he told me off, saying it's cos everyone's talking. And true enough, bro mike came after mass to say that the mike was too soft, and even mr chua got a mouthful from rosney after mass when he tolod him the mike was soft. Wa lau eh, injustice. Bro Mike, GO "TALK "TO HIM!!!

Man, it's a celebration for the Lord and ur so bloody calculative and protective of ur mikes and stuff. THey're all material man! Argh. Watever.

Concert was okok, but i really enjoyed Darrick's class's item. I found it super duper cool! All the dance thingy at the back, the drums, and all the singers, especially the slideshow! that was awesome.

Apart form that, the bangrha done by the teachers was really an eye-opener too. Haha, and as usual, mr sirhan and his "band" did well. But i noticed that sirhan is no longer playing his rock electric guitar.. that's sad... i wanna see him rock!

Well, besides that, the duets were rather ok only.. i didn't really think they were THAT good. But yeah, it's the thought that counts. The effort they put in must not go unforgotten too.

well, that's bout it for now.

Out.

P.S: Psfs pls birng $20 for the retreat, clothes for sleeping, playing, and casual, meet at 2 on friday.

2005-08-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

Had rehearsal today.

Quite a few songs sung. Very shagged after it.

Took 57 with rueben. Big mistake. We left school earlier than mr chua, but when we got to bishan, we saw him. -_-".

We felt like the ultimate losers. Haiz.. Anyway, took the train.. at bishan.. meaning... yes.. those people.

Oh wells, slept on the bus and train, finally got home.. praise the Lord.

2005-08-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

I just went for a haircut.

and i've got only one thing to say.

Don't let the barber talk to his friends while cutting your hair. He screws up.

2005-08-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

It's amusing how some people can seem so logical and mature about things. Yet, when it comes down to the simplest thing of acting in accordence of the situation, they act totally insensitively.

The past week has been taken at my own pace. Mostly due to me falling sick, which in turn meant no training for me, which then meant more time. It was quite an experience, though i get it sometimes.

I get to come home straight after school, at about 3, and have all the time in the afternoon, which i sadly wasted on the computer. =(

Although there were occasional days where i had to stay back in school, most were left empty. I'm really grateful for this week to relax a little. But all good things come to an end.

Did project just now, or rather, attempted. We wasted the day actually.

Moral of the story: Never do projects on sunday, at a friend's house, especially if the deadline is the next day, cos you'll end up like me, rushing to finish everything now.

Wish me luck. Bye.

2005-08-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

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Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.

Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along.

1. Religious

2. Athletic

3. Shy

4. Stylish

5. Adventurous

6. Romantic

7. Wealthy/Ambitious

8. Conservative

9. Traditional

10. Big-Hearted

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3. Athletic

4. Adventurous

5. Romantic

6. Traditional

7. Big-Hearted

8. Outgoing

9. Stylish

10. Intellectual

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Haha, got this from mike's blogg, yeah, pretty cool. Heh. "Shy". O.0

2005-08-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

John bought me a Pooh Bear from london! How cool is that? Haha. It's cute luhs! =)

2005-08-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

I was just lying down on my bed yesterday night, and i was looking my room.

I compared the size of it to Lucas's room, and i suddenly hit me, Wow, i've got a bigger room.. all these things, the four walls, the cupboard, the shelf, drawers. All mine.

I felt how lucky i was. Haha. It was a nice feeling. =)

Then again, while chatting with val just now, how lucky i was to meet her?

I guess, taking a moment, and treasuring the things you have around is a nice thing to do. You'd get that grateful feeling.

Yup. Might be crap to some of you, but yeah, it's nice.

P.S : Val said strepsils kills sperms!! OMG! Lol~~

2005-08-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

The Exco's falling sick. First Mike, then Jianhao, Marcus, Agung, and I'm about to too. But i'm doing everything i can to avoid that. It's not nice to fall sick now.

Anyways, since being in the group, there's been alot of planning going on. Yes, very very alot.

I just realised on friday, during a meeting with Mr Liew that we weren't just supposed to look after the prefectorial board, but rather, the entire school.

Yup. It was then i realised how much we can do, and had to do. So i guess we gotta work hard.

But then just the five of us ain't enough, the whole board's gotta function.

Well, yeah, there's alof of changes going on, since stepping up and all. For the board, it's gonna get more strict. It's really cos we wanna up the standards, but of cos make it fun too.

For track and field, since the past championships, which we did utterly bad, Mr Low has pushed to form a bond between us atheletes. I guess, it's his way of making track more enjoyable for us, to make us wanna come for training. Even the coaches and teachers have taken the effort to join us for training. How's that for a change?

Well, things certainly are changing at a fast pace, but well, it's all for the better. Or so i hope. =)

2005-08-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

I just realized how much i've missed in class.

For example, i just rmbed that i've got my SS TA this friday, and i'm still quite lost on what caused the merger and seperation of singapore and malaysia.

I feel so slack. At leaast in my studies that is.

Been busy with stepping up and all, I think I've neglected my homework alot.

Argh.. time management. It's not that i don't plan.. Sometimes it's cos i really can't seem to find the time, while other times i can't seem to stick to it.

I wonder how some people, like Agung, have 30 hrs a day. I wish i had that. Lol.

Oh wells..

2005-08-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

The week's finally over. Phew.. how tiring it was.

Spent a few recesses and after school time to discuss bout, erhem, Stuff. (Confidential for now)

Was starving by the end of school for a couple of days, cos didn't eat recess. Haiz.. i at so much after school. It's a way of, replenishing the lack of food from recess. haha.

Oh wells.

Thursday was the worst I guess. It was a repeat of last year. But made worst this year. The CBS schools came to vist. Yes, those menacing primary school kids.

Well, first batch came earlier by 15 mins. So we all scrambled to have them settled down. Worst still, mr low made a mistake on which school was coming. So for a moment we thought we had three schools coming at the same time, which caused us some confusion. Luckily it turned out to be just two schools, St Anthony's and De La Salle.

Well, like last year, Agung and I were involved. But fortunately, we had the EXCO, or soon to be EXCO helping. Marcus, Mike and Jian Hao were of tremendous help.

So we finally got them to eat their breakfast and move into the hall. I must say, michael ad marcus did extremely well there to have them settled in place.

As chaotic as that was, it couldn't beat the overlap period with bad weather conditions. Thought the second batch was coming at 10.50. But whoops, nope. It was 10.00. Dang. Had to change the plans for the prefects to meet at the street soccer court to split them up A.S.A.P so that they won't get mixed up. Skies got dark, looked like it was about to pout. But wait, the PAC was still being occupied for the first shift talk! Which means we didn't had a place to hold them when they arrived. Ooops.

Thus, the hall was our solution. intructions were for the prefects to meet in the hall this time. We also made them alight at the main carpark instead of the PAC's. Well, as hard as we tried to contact Qin Rui, he didn't get the message, thus he waited at the PAC carpark. Well, first bus arrived, raindrops came along too. Marcus, Chuxian, Dinesh, and all the carpark ppl worked very hard at getting them into the school, as well as to the hall. Especially Chuxian and marcus. Saw them rushing out to bring the boys in without an unbrella in the rain.

Wanted to split them in the hall, but DANG, we had to evacuate that place because it was being used for fencing demo. So we just rushed them to the PAC, which was by then finally cleared. Had to tell michael to split them up into groups in the PAC. Yet another change of plan. But as always, our reliable mike, with his group of prefects, did a splendid job.

While that was going on, we started faced another problem. The first shift tours were ending, yet the upper sec recess was still on. They had to settle in the canteen. Hmm... Relayed the msg to delay tours, waste time, till the upper sec boys left. Then came another prob. Daily recess duty, only sec fours were doing! Argh. So we just helped out.

Being the pri school kids they are, soon after they came back to the canteen, they started to go buy food, which really gave us a headache as they had to leave soon. So we blocked off all the stores excluding the first three.

After that chaotic batch left, we finally had time to rest for awhile. But even that was short-lived.

Second batch finished their tours, and came to the canteen. Lucky for us, we planned their sitting arrangements this time. So the leaving was too bad. But likewise, there was always a situation we had to solve. As the wrong school came, the wrong amount of food was served, thus we had to let them buy food. So we take the equation : Food + 470 pri school boys = Many things to clear up.

Yes, the canteen was an unsightly sight. Cups, and plates, even bread on the floor. Prefects labour again. Yet, i was stunned, as i saw all of us working, clearing the cups, picking up the plates, and even wiping the tables. The whole canteen was cleared in the matter of minutes.

Awesome. I've never seen anything like that in my time in SJI. It was one of the best group work.

By the end of it, we were all totally shagged and tired. Ate lunch, and went to class for the last few minutes of class. Heh. There goes thursday.

Friday, what can i rmb about it. Hmm. I tried a whole lot to stay awake in class, failed chinese and math test, thin ki failed history. Ah.. sad..

After training, went to the vantican exhibition thingy at raffles place. Was quite cool. But there were less things to see than i expected. Ate dinner at marina square, came home at 11 plus, Watched gundam seed destiny on my laptop till 4am. Haha.

Cyaz.

2005-08-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

Is it so diffcult for you to believe?

I, after trying so hard, finally gotten over it, and you've to keep reminding me of it.

Might seem fun to you, but how much effort does it require of me to keep me from falling back into that shit hole?

Argh. Stop it LA! Not Funny!

2005-08-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.. why can't we write whatever we want on our blogs?

i mean, there's always a "bad" side to a person's behaviour right?

so why can't we express it on our blog?

It's not really fair if we were to always put up a smiley face infront of people we don't like right?

Come on, lets face it. If we don't like a particular person, we're bound to express our dissatisfaction in one way or another, and since a blog is meant for our own personal usage and reading, why must people tell us what to do with it?

If you really aren't happy with what you see, just pretend you didn't see it and buzz off.

I say that with no disrespect to anyone in particular.

Don't worry too much BiAtch!

2005-07-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

I've been getting shit towards the end of the past week.

Results' are out, I'm one of the two Deputy Head.

I'm happy with the results, but I'm I'm not happy with what's happening.

Must you all keep reminding me to behave well and all, everytime I see you?
Must you keep teasing me about my being D.H?
Must you fault me for even the smallest mistake I make?

What's with "Oh, someone's in EXCO la! Big La!"? I mean, WTF is it with you all?

Yeah, might seem funny and fun for you all, but to me, it's starting to get irritating.

I get that shit so many times in school. One from here, another from there, it all adds up and it's certainly frustrating me.

And mind you people, it's not only you all, but teachers as well ok?

Especially Gary Sim.

Not that I'm disrespecting you, but it's enough Sir. Stop it.

I'm starting to have enough of this shit ok?

I became who I am today because of what I did and how I behaved.

So stop trying to make me behave like a goody goody boy just because I'm the Deputy Head.

I'm still the way I am, and that's how it's gonna be.

If I'm slack, I'm slack.
If I work, I work.
If I make a mistake, remember that you aren't perfect either.

Don't tell me how I should be.

I live MY life MY way.

THANK YOU.

Hectic.

2005-07-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

The week's been... Tiring.

Six tests, 4 interviews.

Physics, Chinese X2, Math, History, SUPPOSED to have lit, chem.

Slept on the average 5 hrs daily.

Went to Chua Chu Kang to cheer on Wednesday. Totally dissapointed by the people who left.

Eng Wei and My goals for next year's competiton: "We'll make them Cry"

Randall and My slogan: "Embrace Suffering"

Bad year with injuries, can't be helped too much.

Interviews :

For Exco: With bro mike, and mr sydney tan
SSVP: Elections, Speech.
Exco: Mr Lui, Principle
PSF: Psfs.

I can't be bothered to write much now.. sorry. Got three tests next week. So yeah. Going to study.

I.C.E

2005-07-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

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New Layout

2005-07-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

Haha, i suddenly felt the urge to change it, despite all the stuff i have to do tonite, yet haven't done... i'm quite dead.
But i hope you all like it! I personally love it, haha, i did it by myself! With a little info on the music from michael.
To the HOMEWORK! n other admin stuff.

MILK RUN & Renaissance

2005-07-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

Haha, alright john, i'll update you all on my life a little.

This past week was rather quick. Partly because monday was youth day. =)

MILK run, 'Mainly I Love Kids' run. It was on last sunday. Was supposed to do the water point duty for the run. Well, it was a heck of a time. We were basically those people whom you would see holding cups out while all the runners (or walkers) were going past us, some grabbing so quickly that three quaters of the water in the cup fell out, some even grabbed and dropped them. Lol.

Well, before everything began, we, at the last water check point, had to shift box after boxes of water, because we had three tables. So we worked, without lunch! Consent form had stated lunch was provided. But NuUuUuuUUuuu, we didn't get lunch. So the guy incharge there, Vincent, was so generous! He gave me 50 bucks and said, "Go buy yourself lunch, it's on me." Wootz. Super nice. So eng wei and i ran to funan to get burgers and drinks.

By the time we gobbled up our burgers, we saw the first runner coming to us at a very fast pace. Scarily fast. He completed 7.3km in like, 20-25 mins? Awesome. Well, we were all still greenhorns at the job, so we stuck our arms out with a cup each, and he grabbed one.

It Fell.

First attempt : Failed.

But nvm! Cos we had three tables, so he just ran on and got the cup from the second table. Hahhaha. See, we're good.

Then came on the rest. It really was scary to see waves after waves of masses of people. Kind of like DOTA. (though i never played it before). Yes. Haha. But as the run progressed on, we got better at our task and i must say, we did quite a good job.

I saw Valerie! She was supposed to gimme some flowers! But sadly they writhed before she got to me. Haha. I dun care, you still owe me! =)

By the end of the day, most of us were wet, and very very tired. But it was a good experience.

Went to great world to makan with eng wei and michael lian, then played half hour pool, and went to jay's house for project. I didn't bring a change of clothes. Straight from the run. Only bought a new op round neck shirt.

Yeah, we did physics project, i worked to give a guy some hope, and i witness how love, no wait, Infatuation, can make someone do really extreme things.

Anyways, youth day was spent half project"ing" and half sleeping.

Then the days of school came, and went. Yeah, i was living in fear, cos i haven't handed up some holiday assignments and sutff. Haha. But yes, life now seems so much more simple. =)

Friday! Oh gosh, Mr Chua bought a new keyboard for MM. 3000 bucks. lol, javier, ruben and i were trying it out. Haha. It could make funny voices. Like "Da" "di" "wuu" and stuff. Haha. Anways, had training at CCK stadium, so went there with javier. (his house was just 100 m or so away). I found out, that this years jersey, wasn't nice. Sad. Haiz.

Training started 5pm. Woots, i sucked as usual at first. But i suddenly found out my mistake, while doing a very simple flick throw. It flew far.. Whoaaa.. then from then on, it was nice throw after nice throws. Happy! Felt great. So i took a train from CCK, all the way to TP for RCIY.

Yes, i was making a decision on the train on whether to go, ended up going. Thought it won't hurt going there to see all my friends. I was feeling good too anyway. Haha. Yup. was late, but, what to do. Haha, yes, listened to all steph's complains, had a short chat with luc and yeah. The sisters weren't there, dunno why also. But yeah, session was quite alright.

came home, went online a short while. Slept. Dead tired.

TOday! Saturday.

Woke up at 6.40am. Was to head to expo for young leaders talk. Some Major thingy sponsored by rich companies with very distinguised guests, like HIS EXCELLENCY Ong Keng Yong and Dr. William Tan, who though disabled, cycled through 7 continents, in 7 marathons, in 70 days. New Guinness World record. Yeah, Tanya Chua was there too. All gave inspiring speeches, wasn't as boring as i tought it would be. Only drawbacks were that we had to sit there for so long, and luch wasn't even provided! We took a train from expo to changi airport to get food, cause the q at expo was horrible. Haha, IJTP prefects were with us for lunch. Yeah, they very guai, didn't break rules. While moses and all of us were eating in the mrt.. OOpss.... haha.

Cabbed back to school for renaissance. Ahh, free pass... privillege. Did ticket tearing before going in. Haha, escorted Noah Hon and his wife to their seats. Lol. Not that i really care about big figures. I really don't. Even if you put me next to Lee Kuan Yu, i'd probly take him as just another person. Wahah.

So i sat with Mathias and valerie. Lol. I felt very BRIGHT. But yes, according to val, they're not together, so ppl, pls dun go around spreading nonsense. Thank you. Ah, as always, music was good. No complaints. They played some really nice pieces. I personally like "what a wonderful world" and "phantom of the opera". Yess. They were awesome. Only thing i didn't like was all the calefe ppl la. Wa lao, scream so much, make so much noise, turned the concert into a jay chou concert lidat. EVen brought glowsticks la pls?! Oh gosh. Especially the beside me, (no not matthias, the other side) Couldn't keep his ass to the seat, kept turning around, bending forward and back. Bother. But overall, it was an ejoying day. =)

My Physio Trip

2005-06-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

28/6/05

My FIRST physio session at Alexandra Hospital. I didn't have to attend first half of schhol. =)

Woke up at 6.15 am. Took a bath. Quite cold.. shivverrss. Then had two peices of breads and a cup of milo. Packed up all my stuff for school, loaded my New ipod shuffle *Hehe* with songs, ans set off.

Took 855 to Queensway. Boarded the bus about 7.10. I managed to get a sit! Haha. Then took out my ipod and wootz, shuffle songs and listen. I fell asleep a few times. ALMOST laid my head on another person's shoulder again. Hah!! But NuuuUUuuu. I managed to control.

The whole journey took me about 1hr!! Omg.. Haha, shiok. Extra 40 mins or so of sleep. Yay! Then had to walk about 10 mins uphill to the hospital. Haha, yes mel, i know you would've been complaining.

Then got my appointment in and all. Then this female doc came to ask me to go in. Haha. She was really soft spoken. I couldn't really hear what she was saying. Then she asked another male doc to check me up. Lol. The guy doc was quite cool. Funny guy. Yeah, then he took over and asked me to do some stretching and checked out my back and stuff. Bend here, bend there, lie down on stomach, lie down on back. haha.

Then the fun part came. Cos i wasn't feeling the stretch from the exercises, he said, "Not bad, you're quite flexible." Haha. Right. So he pasted some stuff and wires thing to my back, and said, "Electro therapy. Stimulates the muscles." WOOHOO. Haha. It's very shiok! The machine passes electric currents through the thing, then the feeling was like.. "shiok pain". Haha. SO he started off with a small charge. Slowly increased... then a little pain.. then stable there.

So i continued with that for 15 mins. 50s intervals, with about 10 s of currents passing through me. Yeah. I'm multitasking now, so yeah.. haha.. I blogged for you MEL!

P.S : I will blog about LLTC on the weekend.

A Walk To Remember

2005-06-18T18:20:00.000+08:00

I just read this book. It's a great book. Introduced to me by Lucas.

It's really got emotions in it.

You can cry reading it.

Though there isn't all the twist and changes in the story plot,

it's smooth and easy storyline

is actually what makes it

so nice to read.

It's a love story.

It has religion.

It is the first book i read since sec 1.

I read it in one day.

Cos i couldn't stop.

A walk to remember.

Truely.

SLC'05 - AEIQ

2005-06-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

omg.. the hols are coming to a close.. at least for some of us who have to attend LLTC next week. In case you dun know what LLTC is, it's a combined camp by SJI and St. Pats. Lassalian Leadership Training Camp. Yeah, that's what it's called. And somehow, it's like a prestigous camp for us to join. Cos not everyone can get in. You've to be nominated. Yet, i dread going for it. Several reasons to it. One of them is cos i'm kinda getting enough of bad stories of my seniors experiences. Another reason's cos it's taking up one week of my holidays. The crucial last week to finish my work up. GRrrr..

So RCIY had fundraising last weekend. I wasn't there on the first day, cos i had competition. Went on the next. We managed to earn about 400+? I guess that's enough for us. We had DVDs, CDs, Games, Children Software, Jewelleries, Sweets, Snacks, Chin Chao, Ice Pops, Brownies, and last but not least, Kueh Ko Swee and Kueh Salat.

Homemade stuff sold fast. By the end of the 9.30am mass, the kuehs were gone. Wootz. I guessed the elder population loved them. Then our snacks were gone, and lucas went to buy more. Next were brownies if i remembered correctly. Yeah. As for the rest, well, jewellery sold quite well, earned bout 84 from there, then DVDs and stuff were quite ok too. This lady with her son came and bought 100+ worth of stuff. Wootz. And the son was like expressionless on his face! Can you belive it!? But yeah, we were all quite tired after the morning to noon sale.

I spent quite alot of time with luc for the past week. We studied in church with steph n mel. Yeah, then i wastch Romeo And Juliet at his place on Monday. Tried picking up the guitar again. After having a terrible experience with it last year. The cover was covered with dust. Gosh, i realised i haven't touched it for almost a year. Perhaps more. Heh. So this week was study study at church. But attention span was like 3 hrs max. After that we had to have fun. Haha.. ok.. guilty..

Went to Ang Mo Kio poly on Tuesday. Went there to get a refferral letter to Alexandra hospital for my back injury. I spent a total of 2 hours there. Yyyeeessssss LoooonNnnng. But it's a polyclinic, so yeah. I haven't been tehre for ages. So when i tried looking for it, all i saw was this new builing in place of the old poly, and oh my gosh, fully air con, totally renovated. Ok, i may have been lagging, but i was really amazed at the change. I still got that vivid image of the old poly in my mind.. the times i used to buy drinks form the vending machine, and get medicine from the pharmacy. Never knew it had been so long. So i got the letter, and some gel to apply to reduce the inflamation of the muscles.

June 15th 2005
Wednesday, i had to attend the Convention. But my app. at the hospital was in the morning. Met up with Mum and dad and took train all the way from Khatib to Redhill. Omg.. 1 hr journey. Worst still, it was raining so heavily. Took a cab stright to the hospital from red hill. Then while there, i had to wait another hour to see the consultant. Mummy was agitated. Haiz.. inside, i was feeling so guilty, for having to make them come with me all the way, and disturbing their work and stuff. I told them they didn't have to follow, but they insisted.

So yeah, saw the doc, arranged for physiotherapy. 28th june, first session. Gonna miss first half of school. *Worries* My results were all that great for mid year. Though others did badly too, it's not an excuse. So after that, took a cab to St. Nicks for the convention. Reached there about 12pm. Just in time for lunch. =)

Was led to the canteen by Raymond, and introduced to my group. Which happended to be my blood type too, O! Yeahhhh. Lunch was Nasi Lemak. Lol, i didn't really think it was great for convention, but ate it anyway. Saw some of the rest really didn't feel like eating it too. Haha. Missed out on the ice breakers in the morning, so you can imagine how i felt when i first got there. "Err.. hmm.. needta do something.."

So yeah, tried to know them, and i, having a very bad memory for names and faces, actually managed to get most of thier names before job hunt started! Haha, proud.

After lunch, we had Jobhunt. Destination, Toa Pa Yoh. Omg.. the place i've been spending my whole holidays at. Haha. Kinda knew the place very very well by now. So yeah, we tried looking for jobs there, split into two groups at first, cos we figured one shop didn't need 11 people helping out. So my group went to the Valu store outside the MRT. At first, they were hesitant about lettting us help, but after hearing it was for free, i dare say they abused our labour!!!! Stupid people. We had to wipe the window at first, then just awile later they got some of us to help organise the store. Valerie, shi hui, honding. Julius was pumping balls for the guy. So Chewyee and i were left to do the windows. So we looked in and tried to find the rest, but couldn't find them at all, thought they were slacking, cos we only saw shi hui.

After the windows, the two of us swept the floor. That was when we figued out why we didn't see the rest. Guess why? It was cos valerie was carrying a basket walking around putting things back in their rightful places. Haha, no wonder she blended in with the rest of the people. Think honding and the rest were further to the back. Lol. I feel sorry for val, haha, partly cos there were really alot of things laying around, and the other reason was cos chewyee and i were going "Valerie!!" the moment we saw things on the floor, or just not in the right place. Haha, just dumped the stuff in her basket. haha, ok la, i feel bad now. Sorraye?

Yeah, so after we were done with sweeping, they guy asked us to go help the rest. Omg.. and i thought that was all. I could tell everything was already back in their places, but NuuuuUuUUuU, he wouldn't let us go, just because we said we needed to leave at 4.30pm. Grr.... So after seeing that everything was in order, i went to tell him were were done. That guy was slacking inside this storeroom pls?! i think we had just taken over his work period. SlackkkkER!!!

He gave me that look and said, "Really? Just continue to do shelfing."

"We've done that already."

"Sure anot? Just continue."

And he closed the door on me. ATTITUDE?! Friggin hell. Then the guy outside told us to replenish the drinks on the shelf. Ahhhhhh.... so we lingered on till 4.30pm. And despite all our hard work and stuff, the grades he gave for our work were really bad! WTH la! I tell you we worked our asses off for that semi bald guy! And in his comment, wrote: Need to improve.

I'm never going there again. At least not till i need to buy gift boxes for presents.

Met the other group, and headed back to St. Nicks. Lazed around in a dunno what room. (Cos i didn't go there in the morning). And had tea break? Butter cake and drink. Hmmm..... didn't think they liked it. But gobbled it up anyway. Then went to the family lounge after doing some personality test thing. Sat there to plan for talentime, for the next day. Hmm... Family dance was the original plan, but, things changed. Shall elaborate later.

Came home, shagged. Yet still had to look for another guy to attend the mgs prefects camp. I ended up finding no one. Haiz... i tried EVERYONE in sec three ok?!

June 16th 2005

Shi Hui didn't come.

I woke up at 7am. I didn't feel like going. Cos i was on the phone till 2am. but somehow i dragged myself outta the bed and took a nice warm bath. Left about 7.45. Felt lazy to walk into cat high, so took a cab. Haha. Was greeted by a queue for registering. Had to write our name, school, and contact number on a candle. Then i saw Cheeyee and Genevive, or just simply Gen. Then Honding, julius, and soon enough the whole group was there.

There was this other guys and gurls in my group btw. Megat, edward, Bertilla and Brenda. Yup. So my groupmates were, Chewyee, Valerie, Bertilla, Megat, Honding, Brenda, Julius, Genevive, Shi hui, Edward, and me. Facils were james and... and... Bian Tai, Wang Guan!! Hhhhaaaa.

Anyways, we had CSI game after a short briefing. Fun. Tired. But we had a pretty clear picture of the murder. We got third for the CSI!! Woohoo!!

Then had this talk by a guy from army. Yeah, i think he's quite god at relating to us. Cos, usually, these kinda talks are boring. but somehow, he did his best to keep us to it. And i give him credit. =)

We borrowed a radio, for talentime, but another group took it after we used it for 10 mins. So left without a radio, we had to do a skit. Ideas anyone? Blank. But we HAD to do something!! Haha, so i got this idea of acting out the process of how Melissa Ang, (the victim of CSI game) died! lol. So everyone agreed and we started craking. Only had 1/2 hour left!!

Ended up being Bai ling. The runner up for the beauty pageant. Second most likey suspect. Yeah... i dare say, we did extremely well for the talentime. Haha, good enough for second! I'm telling you, that was the gayest moment of my life. Acting as Bai ling. Can ask the audience... we were gay.. Yes, and julius was acting as melissa. Main "actress". Well, it was a bang anyway. People laughed themselves silly.

After that, Had the pictures of the camp flashed. Once again, when it came to me and julius, there was laughter. Haha.

Prize presentation and reflections were next, yup, got through with it and we all went outside to see the four letters. A.E.I.Q! Formed by all the candles we wrote on in the morning. It was really nice, especilly in the dark. But unfortunately the candles kept going out, and they had to keep lighting them. so we formed a big semi clircle, jumped to "at the beginning" then a full circle. Went round and round and round. haha. Then settled down, had some slower songs.. just to chill.. enjoy.... sway.. spend the last few moments of camp. Yeah, it dawned unto me that it was all coming to a close. two short days. I felt for the org.com. They had spent four months planning it. and within two days, it ends.

Yess.. to end it all off, they played "graduation".. aAaaaawwwww......... sadness... flood flood... then a gathering, with short speeches by the head prefects of the four org. schools. and yesh, I had a last group hug with my group and taa taa...

Group O

While others stone, we rock. ; )

Edward

Omg, u funny man,

thanks alot for bring us around ur school!

Can't forget u as the host!

Valerie

VALERIE!! haha, will rmb you!

Funny, laughable, yet can tell you are a good leader.

Lol, typical st. nick gurl? Maybe?

You're a Sweet gurl la.

You know tiong chew!!??

Bertilla

(you've gotta pronounce it properly. With 'class' pls)

You're full of ideas.

Too bad you couldn't teach us that dance.

But we still did good rite?

Keep in contact!

Chewyee

(She's self-proclaimed 51% MALE)

Cool.. dude?!

Haha, yess, daring.

You're a good leader.

And a good senior too!

I'll lend you the disc soon!

Had fun cleaning windows and sweeping floors with you!

Megat

A lil quiet, but nonetheless,

you did your part.

Will keep you in mind.

Honding

Heyyy, dilligent.

Ur an 'I' rite?

doesn't really seem like it.

Great knowing you!

Shi Hui

Cool lookin gurl.

can imagine you with a pair of sunglasses

Wootz. Hockey gurl.

Whyie u never come on 2nd day!!!

Sobs.

Brenda

Quiet too.

Shy perhaps?

But i know your a great person.

It was great having your company.

The ribbon looked good on you.

Genevieve

(She's a chili padi)

You like hitting guys so much?

So violent.

Haha.

Cute gurl.

Haha, dun hit me again!!

you're yeah, cute.

Can't find other words.

I'm sure we'll meet up again for starbucks.

Dun worry.

Julius

Omg.. u can act gay!

Like me!

Woohoo!

Haha, gentle guy.

Tolerant against Gen.

Thanks for the contacts!

James

You're a great facil.

Thanks for tying to spend time with us.

Can see you're good at what you're doing too.

Dun lose the vouchers!!

Wang Guan

Haha, what else can i say about you.

Hilarious, bian tai, corny.

Still the same male slut (excuse the language) i knew.

Core Group

(and all the other sub comms)

Thank you all for spending time to organise the convention.

It was great.

I'm sure we all enjoyed ourselves.

Made more friends too.

Cheers!

End.

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This Chapter,

I put a lock there.

Broke the key into a million pieces.

Scattered it.

Just in case i might one day need it again.

Not all hope is lost.

But I'm gonna leave it as that for now.

Though i'm not all over it yet.

I'll let it dissolve.

So dun worry mel and luc.

Thanks for what you have done.

I'll find a way.

I know He'll help too.

Learnings

2005-06-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

Been bout a little more than a week since i last blog. It feels long. Yet, many things has happened in this period of time, especially the last few days. I seem to realize more about the stuff going on around me.

Let's see, after i fell sick, i basically just wasted the few days away. Just sat infront of my computer each day, playing some games, over and over again. Basically, i didn't use the time well, and i'm guilty of it.

Had a meeting on thursday, to plan for the things needed for RCIY. Just tied some loose ends and finalized some things for fundraising and session.
Went for RCIY on friday. Had to get ready for the treasure hunt. We thought we weren't going to finish in time. It was really flustering. Had to hide the things around the room and yeah, basically prepare the room for the treasure hunt. Marcus was asking me not to be too evil. So ok, we put it so it was pretty easy for them to find the items. Then i went over to the other room to see how steph was doing. I stepped into the room, just took a quick glance around, and oh gosh, nothing. Absolutely no trace watsoever of the things she hid. I was really really sure i had to redo my room. So we did. But honestly, i still think i should've been more evil. So much for steph's "You dun be so evil, i won't be evil too". Bluff me. Humph. Nvm. We still won in the end.

Anyways, my feeling bout the whole session is this: I didn't get the kind of feeling like last year when i joined. Maybe it's cos i've been through the journey once before. But to me, it was because of the lack of number of newcomers. I mean, apart from eugene and michell, there was only Cindy, Pearlyn, and eliot. Basically, that was it. Three really "new" people. As much as i hate to say it, it felt quite pathetic to me. I just thought we really needed more people, and how we're going to get more people? I honestly don't know. Sad isn't it. A whole journey full of ideas, yet no one to walk it. I pray that more people will come, from the bottom of my heart.

Saturday and Sunday, what memories do i have of them. Hmm, i can't remember clearly now. I remembered finally being able to watch Sonic X after missing it for so many days. Saturday's a blur. But i remember Sunday. Went for 9.30 mass, with lucas and family, then headed back to yishun to bro's house to swim and study. Reached there about 12, played computer, downloaded the lost-for-a-period-of-time Survival Project, and started playing awhile. Then untill mummy came, then went for swimming. Stayed on at his place till night, then i decided to just stay there for the night. Yeah, played the computer till about 4 am in the morn. People on msn were wondering why i was up all night. Haha.

So anyway, monday. Study session with luc and steph. Rushed home form terence's house to change and bath then head out to toa pa yoh. Managed to do some work. A little math and lit. But my math is really bad. Really gotta practice more. So yeah, bought lucas a pair of swimming trunks for sentosa. Lol.

Tuesday, went sentosa with steph luc marese and mel and alan joined later. Spent most of the time in the water playing ball. Luc wanted to tan at first, but no one did, so yeah, he just joined us. Ate sakae sushi for lunch. Was sitting there with my wet shorts and all. Very cold. Kev stained his shorts with soy sauce. Lol. so after lunch, we went back and went into the water again. Poor lucas though, he wanted to kayak. But kayaking between two islands didn't really appeal to any of us, so sadly for him we didn't. But i guess overall in the day, it was fun.

So i learnt pretty much on that day. Learned bout myself, learned bout how others treated others, realised how people looked at other people, and how big a moron i could be. "Every thing derserves a chance". Nice words. I thought about it, and yeah, i agree, it's true. Evrything does deserve a chance.

So i guess the problem lies mainly with me doesn't it. Yeah sure, lucas is playing his part and all, but i'm like the ulitmate stupidity who just refuses to do what i'm supposed to do. I can't help but to think the negative way. And i'm trying to change. Yes, i'm trying. Whether after i try, it'll work or not, that's not my choice. But it's just difficult, for me to think positively on the way she is towards me. I mean, luc, u saw how it was when we said "bye". Rather dao wasn't it. Bleah.

So yeah. today, went for training, rained like mad for a moment. then did weights. Had lunch in school, and headed down to library to study. Got sorta chased out of the place cos "it's the peak hours of the library and spaces are reserved for people to read our library books and not for self study". Blah. Went to church instead to study. Borrowed a room. Kinda cool isn't it. Studying in church. Haha. Well, i tried talking a little. Just a realllly tiny bit. I wondered if it made any difference. All i knew was when she left, it left a feeling of dullness in me. I just stoned in the room for a while with luc. Well anyways, a couple of problems for the fundraising, but i trust that they settled it already.

I was rudely commanded by my mum to return home for great grandma's birthday. Well, i sometimes feel really hurt or rather, affected by the way she talks. Like, does she even know how i feel. I mean, ok, she might be a woman, might be my mum and all, but it still doesn't allow her to be so insensitive right? Arh, oh watever, i've just grown used to turning a deaf ear or just in one side and out the other. But through the passage of one side to the other, damage is done. Inevitably.

Just a thank you to luc for the past few days. You've been a great person to talk to. I really do hope people see this side of you, not just to think you're a joke. Honest.

Being sick.

2005-06-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yup, i still have flu. But i feel much better as compared to sunday.

It's funny. When you get a fever, ur head starts to come up with the strangest things. Like, the way you think, or even your dreams. I've been having weird dreams ever since sunday. Ok, maybe not all weird. But some still make me go, "what was that all about?". haha.

Ok, i had this really funny one where i was on a train with this gurl, supposed to be my friend, who just suddenly kissed me. So being surprised i did the same back. Then next moment i was trying to chase the bus that she was on. haha, Weird.

The had this dream last nite. Had dinner with 206 guys, somewhere in yishun. But then when time to go home, it was lilke at serangoon! Diaoz. Yeah, must've missed the old house so much. Well then there was lucas's house! Omg, i wonder how'd i ended up there. I took a bath under a towel? Oh gosh, it just gets weirder. Next thing i know is that i'm back home in my great grandma's room. Lol. Then i woke up.

Dreams aside, the past few days have been, non-contructive i would say. Just been sitting infront of this laptop playing games that i've already completed. I dunno why i even bother. So yeah, got a mouth full from my mum last nite. Not supposed to play so much anymore. So yeah, think better start working towards FYE.

Just need a starting push.

Start of the June hols.

2005-05-30T20:14:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. :(

What a way to start the holidays.

I cancelled the Ipoh trip. Can't go. Head's dizzy, can't walk properly.

I'll blog some time soon.

2005-05-23T16:51:00.000+08:00

My june hols are pretty much gone. Yeaps, just like many others. It seemed like the month of may passed so quickly. And looking back, just at the start of this month, my june was still open to activities. But how quickly that changed. Now i've just a few days here and there to treasure.

Sometimes i wonder, why do i do the things i do. Like saying yes to things that i know will wear4 me down. Maybe it's because of the person who's asking me to do it, maybe its the things that i think of that will happen if i do, or dun do it. Or maybe it's just because of my pride which just refuses to let me say no. But it's certainly not helping. I've to learn to change. Cos if not it'll break me down apart.

Haven't been to training for two months now. My back is still in bad shape. I really do hope it does get better. Most probly i won't be taking part in nationals this year. Apparently, this is one of the few things that i have learnt to turn down. But i've learnt this through the hard way. Yeah, the painful way.

Didn't go for RGS carnival, i CHOSE not to. yes, after much asking others for opinions, and looking at what i have to do. I went shopping instead on saturday. I thought the carnival wouldn't affect me if i didn't go. but how ironic, it's because i didn't go, that such stupid stuff has to happen. I still can't believe that xavier'd actually do that. I mean, it was childish. Seriously speaking. Dun tell me that you're seriously so despo to do such things. I just still not over it. I can't understand why, even when i dun turn up for things, other matters still come to me. Now is this my fault?

Another thing which i came across the week that has been on my mind. If you've made the mistake once, why do you continue to make it again and again? Has it never crossed your mind the result may be the same? Ok, it MAY be different, but isn't making that mistake for a couple of times now good enough a reason for you to stop? argh, it's not my decision anyway, i can't help much now.

Anyway, RCIY's starting again. But only three have actually came to the booth to sign up. Wells, hope everything will be fine. But i'm sure it's gonna take up time. And that's kinda like the thing i need now. Maybe i should just limit myself to the involvment.. yes.. maybe...

Luckily there's still some joy in the week of moodiness. Like, some things can never really be predicted to happen. Or rather, some things never go according to how you have thought it would be. Yes, indeed. I never saw that coming. And thank god for a caring 'grandma'. :)

Update 16/5/05

2005-05-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

A Math paper : 25/50.

Overall A math: 52.

I passed A math!! ok, maybe just by a little.. but i promise i'll do better next time.

Pls dun ground me mummy!

A painful week

2005-05-15T13:47:00.000+08:00

Haha, yes, as Balu describes it. The week has been PaInFul.

I'm referring to our results actually. Haha. Yes, the marks we have been receiving are totally pathetic. So far i've failed like two subs. It's like a big wow, to fail two subs in a major exam. Haha. Well, i guess we'll just have to work harder for our final year, i mean, we can't change what's done, but we can change wat's to come.

Well, despite the sadness of almost evryone of us failing our tests, there's been quite alot of laughter recently in class about the M.I.L.F Wars. Lolz. I shan't say here wat it is, may be offending. -winkz- Yes, balu and his nonsense. But it certainly brighten up our days didn't it. (OMG Balu BRIGHTENS UP our days!! Wootz, oximoron. WHAAHHA)

Ah, yes, friday was cross country. So as usual, SVDP was selling drinks. One can for a dollar. And as usual, everything got sold out even before the last batch of runners came in. and i was in the last batch pls?! Ahaha, i think i got a time of like 29 mins for 4.8km. I tried waiting for Deyong, but i couldn't find him after awhile. I think i walked about 700 m in total, maybe more. hmm. Haha, slack slack. Ah, jay almost died towards the end. U see, there was supposed to be four water stations along the way. But it so happened that by the last run, all the water was gone. = so poor jay almost died. But lucky i had a fren who reserved a cup for themselves, and was kind enough to offer me and so i gave jay some too. Haha, it's good to have contacts no?

And i finally got to see my church peeps again!!! Especially the all longly-missed mel and marese. Lolz. Oh and lucas was like Purple that night!!! He spent the whole day at sentosa. Lol. I bet he's feeling the pain of sunburn now. Hahah.

Went for training the in the week too. And sadly my back still hurts! Ah damned, i can't train, which means, i can't win. Actually, i can't even take part la!! Saw a doc on saturday, gave me one month MC and said go see sports council doctor! Omg.. gone already, cannot participate this year. Ah, saddening, F.K.C.C's b'div is gone... only got shaine left. And he's not doing very well too. Huurs.

So yeah, going to meet steph and marese later to do the registration for RCIY. Ah! haha, might as well advertise on my blog.

<> Interested in knowing more about God and the church while having fun and making more friends? join our RCIY!!

Pls contact me. 90082142 or roderick1990@msn.com

Ah, and might as well help Steph too. Lolz. Ij concert on 26th may at kallang. Wan to go tell me also.. latest eh, by end of this coming week?

Lolz.

Update 15/5/05

2005-05-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

History : 8/13 (Convert to 50%)
SS: 21/25 (convert to 50%)

Overall: 73/100.

One of the subjects i'm proud of.

Update 12/05/05

2005-05-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Failed E math. paper 17/50.

Overall emath : 42/100.

Latest Results, Updated 10-05-05

2005-05-10T20:04:00.000+08:00

Physics Paper: 20/50
Chemistry Paper:29/50

EXTRA EXTRA: It's been confirmed, the rumour's true. Go figure!

2005-05-09T21:03:00.000+08:00

Exam Week. Hmm, what can it suggest? Haha, Boring? Not exactly.

Mugged the weekend before it all started. Yeah, that long weekend, where i Laboured my brains on Labour day. Lolz. I felt it helped, but maybe i was wrong, considering the news of the results i have. Oh well, i really felt that i knew how to do the questions. It's just, the lack of time. Maybe, i may have learnt how to do them, but it's just because i'm not fast enough due to lack of practice.

Well, first paper was Emath. Haha, i went through everything, well, everything except similar and congurent triangles. And guess what? They focused on that very topic. Woohoo, failure at first sight. But the other questions were ok. I finished up about 4 questions by 8:15, woohoo, still on time. But when i hit the stem and leaf and frequency questions, omg, easy, or so i thought. With the presence of a calculator denied, we had to manually calculate every single frequency and find the mean. Oh gosh, guess what was the highest number in the equation? 2000+. Yess, and it was like 8 different sets of frequencies to calculate. Those two pathatic mark carrying questions took me 15 mins to finish, when i'm only supposed to spend 5 mins on one question. And so i had to leave out the graph question totally. Ouch.

I honestly think that none of us in class actually finished the paper, actually, the whole level for that matter. It's really very, horrific, how we actually couldn't finish an E math paper, with much questions based on Sec 2 work. So it came as a trauma.

Without fullly recovering from the shocling E math defeat, there came Second paper, Chemistry. I admit i kinda slacked off studying for chem. And now with the results slowly leakng out, i see the reason why. Yes, the paper was ok. Just didn't know a question or two. Everything seemed normal, essay question had two parts, so without reading the instrustions, i just carried on to do the easier one, as like the past papers we did for two years. So i finished everything, and had 10 mins to spare. Woohoo, i thought, i'm actually fast! So i checked my paper again, spent about 7 mins. So, with two mins left, i came to the essay question, and wondered, why did they give us so much paper behind to write on? Suspicion. Read the instructions, "Answer ALL questions." OH DAMN! Yes. Indeed. I felt like a total moron. So i tried salvaging marks by writing anything i could on the back page, to answer that question i stupidly missed out.
A second traumatic shock.

So, the tests for that day were over. Chinese lessons next. Oh gosh, as if two shocks weren't enough. Lily Kwang told us bout the ONCE AGAIN, NEW CHINESE O'LEVEL format. @!#$%^&*!!! Why do they keep changing. Oh gosh. It's bad now. Yes bad.

Well, tests on wednesday were quite expected. I may fail them. Haiz. I think i'm like gonna fail three subjects? That's like, bad. Yes. Actually, Very, extremely bad. I mean, using the whole level failing isn't a good excuse. I guess we gotta buck up.

Thursday Social studies, woohoo, i think i did ok for this one. At last, one subject i can rely on. I had the intention of ending the exams on a more Confident note. Heh, self comforting.

Friday! Oh i went back to training today. Woots. Weights. My chest muscles are sore, very sore. They hurt even when i do nothing now. Ouchieee......... I eagerly awaited the evening. But then the feeling just died. With a couple of words. Crash and burn feeling. Ah... how sad i felt. Yet another week... well.. i'm handling it pretty well i should say. Haha. Somehow, the time gap seems to make me numb towards these situations till they happen.

Attended two b'day parties on Saturday. Went to buy the presents at orchard in the morning. LAme shiet. 7 ppl pool in to buy. So dy, ivan and i ended up buying an OP shirt and Fox boardshorts for HT and A nike pouch and converse cap for ZL. Woots, put them together and u get a whole new set of clothings. Whahahaahah.... Second party was at Jay's house. Nice house i tell u. Very nice, elegant design. Yup.

PLayed the sunday away. Hahaha.. wasted.... regreting it now. WOrk pilling up. lolz. Cya.

Friday - SJI Track and Field meet 2005

2005-04-30T16:25:00.000+08:00

Friday. Sports Day! WOohoo!! But wait, OuchiEEE!! Legs hurting from the run. Yeas, i was wondering how'd i run properly. Anyways, got there, met eng wei, javier, headed to T.P stadium. It was so hot that my whole shirt went wet even before the thing started. Yeah, wet. Wa lau, i only brought two shirts, and one was wet. So, everything went on smoothly, Fintan's points were pilling and rising very quickly. Haha. So came 4x400 sec three. Bummer, missing ppl. Irwin injured, calvin dowan run, some kinda nonsensical stuff la. So kevin and i got dragged to run it. I was absolutely not looking forward to it. I mean, i went there only reading to pump a 100 meter and finish, but here i was being dragged to run 4x400. And i can't even run a 200 without tiring out! Aiya, wth la, put on some deep heat and ran it. By the end of my leg i was like totally in pain la. Ouch ouch ouch, the usual strain on the hamstrings. I wonder why i always get it there. Is there anyway to train the hamstrings?

So yeah, rested for my next race. But hey, walked about here and there, chatted here and there, and even got to see someone i wouldn't have thought would be there. Haha. I wunt say who, but i know it made someone happy that the person's presence was there. -winkz wink- So anyways, 4x100, i was like damn slow la, run run run, then, Ouch, back pain. Unlucky. I think i passed the baton like amongs the lasat few to eng wei, but hey, he caught up anyway.. i dunno whyie luh, too long never sprint, never train, then got injury. Eee... so shitty. Eng wei also had a back injury, haha, first two runners of our team had similar injuries. Well, we won the thing, i mean, we knew we were. Yay, a fifth medal.

everything ended bout 12. Haha, there were a few shockers at the closing. Individual champion Sec 1: Fintan, Sec 3: Fintan Sec 4: Fintan. track and field meet Champion house for sec 1: Fintan, Sec 2: Fintan: Sec 3 Fintan Sec 4 Fintan. Overall track champion: Fintan, Field Champion: Fintan, Overall house champion, *drum rolls*: Fintan. Wootz. Haha, i wondered if the judges screwed up or something. Because, Timothy Chua was supposed to get indiv champ. He had four golds. And our 4X100 team, got 47 sec, while record was 46, so how could we have broken the record? Haha, anyways, it was in our favour, so i dun really care. >.<

So after the whole thing, my legs were not listening to me anymore. So heavy and lazy to move. Walked to macs, with dy, zl, john, yh, lucas. Did i miss anyone? hope not. So ate there, then went to t.p library to study. No space there though, funny, school wasn't over yet, was only 12.30, but already had students there on the tables. AIya, had to settle for the ground.

Met steph at 2.30. John and Luc went home. Went with her to macs to get her lunch. THen called yh, dy and zl to come to the macs at central to study cos got space. Then those three ar, dunno whyie so blur, went to the one opp stadium, then called me. I was like, "What?! CENTRAL CENTRAL!!!" So i waited again, for quite long, then a call came again. A bigger shocker. "The one we went to just now right?". @.@'ll
Well, they got there in the end.. so studied till 5 plus, wondered if it helped anyway, yh and i were desperately trying to do some a math sums and boy, did we feel like failures.

Went to church to plan for RCIY next batch. Only tim, steph, luc, kev, and i ended up there. Ada and marc too. So we did the planning till bout 10 plus. I think the whole outline's quite good, but still had to do things in details. yeah. That's bout it i must say, gonna go church now. Ciao!

Just before exams....

2005-04-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

Ah, this week was fun. Yup, i finally went back for SVDP, and we had sports day. Well, there was tests too, but aiya, they all were part and puzzle of school life.

Starting off with Monday, hm, we got back out Lit Test papers. The scores were unexpected, negatively. Yup. I guess we all knew it. The poem was difficult, couldn't pick up the mood and stuff. So yeah. Though i passed, it was because Mrs Chong upped the marks. Yeah, almost everyone in class failed though. Hope the second poem we did was better.

Tuesday, I was looking forward to end of school. Yes. For a couple of reasons. Well, Injury means no trianing rite?? So i could finally get back to SVDP for after almost a month. Wat timing for going back i had, all the sec fours were studying for mid-year, so guess what, i was the only committee there. Oh gosh, lucky only 14 ppl came. Went to KWSH, woots, missed that place. Haha, all the old folks seemed happy still. Spent my time there, playing puzzles with a couple of them. Rest of those in the hall were having Karaokae. For their age, i was actually surprised that they could still read the lyrics and sing the song. Ok, they may not sound like American Idols, but i tell u, they are better than u at those oldies. The other reason why i looked forward to after school was let's say, just a hopeful. It wasn't gonna happen anymore, not after that day.

Wednesday, ah, i mugged the day and night away. Was trying to do the stupid A-math paper. I realised how much i sucked at it. I just dun understand why i can't do the questions. I can't seem to apply what i've learnt to the questions. It's like, i look at the question, and my head goes, "Ok.. What to do ar..?" Not for all, but MOST. So it's MOST prolly i'd fail if this goes on. Haiz, this can't do, gotta go study harder. Yup. Slept super late, didn't bother about 2.4 next day. Drank coffee, then studied till 12, and slept.

Dreaded thursday. 2.4 after missing two weeks of training just didn't sound good to me. It was like, confirm a torture. Well, even the start of the day wasn't good. Chapel service certainly didn't go well.. Erm.. i shan't say what happened. So i ran the 2.4, got 12.19. Haiz, bad. Fitness drop. I misesd C by 9 secs! Oh gosh, i'm gonna run again. And yeah, nigel wasn't too happy bout not being able to beat someone too. Haha. Run again lorz......

Vroom vroom

2005-04-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

Another week past by, another week closer to common tests. Yup. "No Mid-year" says the school, but got "common tests". What's the diff. Still calculate marks, count positions and percentage.

Oral duty on Monday was quite a screw up. But i really thought i wasn't the prefects fault. We didn't even know what to do. No briefing or stuff like that. And then the holding rooms were screwed up, and we had to send the candidates like UP one level to their oral rooms. Wth.. crappy. And it didn't help much when they all didn't wanna listen to us in the holding rooms. Haiz.

So i was looking to coming back early on friday after the prefects assembly, but then i just had to be called down for last min oral duty cos there weren't enuff people. Argh, frustrating. Ended up coming home like in the evening, on a free friday. Wasted. Didn't wanna do work at all.

One of a few things i learnt this week was to not exercise when ur not supposed to. Cos it just doesn't pay off. Sure, i got gold for 100hurdles and javelin again, but my back hurt like crap again too. Went to see a chinese physician on saturday nite. *crack* went the bones in my back, and more *cracks* to the bones in my neck, and he said it was done. The process of getting to the shop and all took longer than that. Then he put some medicated "Shao Lin Oil" then bandaged it up. I dunno if it felt better, cos there wasn't any pain unless i excerised. So i'm gonna keep myself out from all the vigorous stuff for now. And yes, like you said, my muscles will get soft. but what can i do about it..? :s

So another thing which i learnt was to not be too lenient on stuff, especially when it starts to irritate u. U see, i dun usually get angry rite? So people start thinking i'll never be, which leads to them just crawling over me. So i'm sorry for u nigel, but u had to suffer that. Cos i did repeatedly tell u to stop spraying water at me. And for gabriel too, any more nonsense and i assure u that it's not just gonna be a friendly wrestling match. I've got enough problems sitting next to mark sng in class, and i dun need more things to irritate me any furtur. U got that people?

I try, to close down the gap.

But it doesnt seem to be working.

Is it wrong?

The way i'm shifting the gear?

Or is it just because the engine's just not liking me?

Well anyways, i'm quite out of gas for now,

so i'm finding this gas station that will hopefully fill me up.

Or no, maybe not, maybe i'll hope to just abandon this car and walk on my own.

It's cetainly more difficult, more tiring, and challenging.

But maybe it will pay off?

Cos if the car doesn't wanna move,

i can't push it the whole way myself.

At least i know there's this person who will walk this road with me.

That thought alone is comforting enough.

Grey

2005-04-16T13:45:00.000+08:00

Grey - that's a colour to describe my life for now.

Yeah, life's pretty grey now. After my back got screwed that is. Everything just seemed to slow down, and after that long journey to end a cycle, yet another one starts. It's like a s...l..o..w routine... Each and Everyday..

Didn't go for taining for the past one and a half week, nope, not at all. You might say, "isn't that good? You have more time now!" Well, yes i do, but it seems like the time i have now isn't being put to any use at all. The past three weeks have almost been identical. Heavy workload at the start of each week, then it lightens up towards the end.

I came home each day this week, averagely about 4pm. I didn't know what to do at home. It all seems so foreign. Being at home in the afternoon on a weekday is something i dun usually get to do. And now with all these time forced unto me, i've got no idea what to do about it. Turn on the TV, settle down in the sofa, then just waste away. No motivation for work. Well, i guess that was how i past my days.

Well, the only highlight of the week would be the SJIOBA duty. Was entire shagged after the duty. Venue was at Sentosa Cove. Imagine being there from 5pm - 9:30pm, on a tuesday. So i was incharge, but what difference did it make? I still felt we were all equal. Had the job of directing the cars into either the VIP carpark or the guest carpark. I encountered this man who was really unreasonable. He asked where the place was, so i pointed at the showhouse. Then he said, "Still must walk?!" so i told him it's a very short walk if he were to park near the end of the guest carpark. Then i think he was like muttering some stuff under his breath, so i apologised and thought he woudl drive into the guest carpark. But NO, he didn't. He just completely ignored me and drove into the VIP carpark. I was like, WTH!? So what if you had a cool merz benz with only two doors? So what!? Bloody shithead. Saw him again at the reception, stupid foool.

Anyways, apart from that, we got to enjoy the food too. SJIOBA duty always pays off. We even got to drink a lil wine. Ok, maybe only a few of us. I got a glass for myself. So we took a picture with Tony Tan and got our faces shown on Tv (which we never got to see) and got a singing session with Kat Ong. Honestly, i'm not into all the big famous government figures. I mean, i wasn't like someone who wanted a pic with him so desperately. I dunno why, but having a pic with idols or famous ppl isn't my liking. But Kat was different. She had a fantastic voice. And a sensational skill with the guitar. Music of the night was by her. Nice. So SJI prefects got together and had a singing session with her. Heh, everyone looked at us, oOoOo.. Well, the trip back was shorter than expected. I reached home about 10.30. too shagged for anywork, just slept. Lucky OMF didn't scold me for not doing my work. Must've been Eng Wei and WG who had explained to her. =)

For poor Randall who got his back sat on: Get well big man, we need you. Whack the guy back next time you see him!

Finally got to see all my church frenz last nite. Wootz. Went to Slizzlers at Suntec. Yup. Got stuck in traffic with Tim and ended up paying 15 bucks for the taxi. Lolz. So, dinner was nice, the ice cream was sweet, and everything just kinda felt back to usual again. Cos for the past few fridays, i was just wondering what i was gonna do, since the usual was off. There was this one question put to me in school on friday, "Who or what is it that has brought you to God?" I just thought of all you guys. I realised that the main joy in going to church, and worshipping God, was to be with you all. Cos i'm really happy when we're together. Sessions, outings, camp. I just enjoyed every moment of it. Not to mention last nite too. I do really hope to see you all soon again. To fill up my friday nitez, to have a an hour or two of laughter and closeness to God. I love you ppl!

Ok, i've got a call to go look after my uncle who's really sick now. So i guess i'll be staying over at my Grandaunt's house tonite. Cya.

2005-04-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

Alot of pain for the past week. Most i ever had in many years. After each training, my back was screamin in pain. Yet i still continued. Quite stupid when i think of it now. But i do remember telling myself that i was doing it all for the sake of competiton. So saturday came, and i went for it. Didn't achieve anything, not even a distance. All i came back with was a pain which was worst then any other day. Ouch, yes, that was how i went after each throw at the competition ground. Deep heat spray didn't help either. Was certainly more serious than i thought it was. So now i've a decision to make, cos wednesday's interhouse javelin. Should i throw?

Anyways, the past week was similar to the previous week. Busy first half, and slack second half. Thursday was founders day, so we didn't have any lessons at all. Went for Mass in PAC. I wondered how all you people thought of Geovenn's singing. I mean, not that i'm that much better or anything, but it's not the singing which determined how i felt bout him. It was more of his "EXTRANESS". Yes indeed. He was somewat like R*j*n. No doubt. Only difference was their age. Received my first holy communion in school. Though it was a little rushed.

Went to the hall for celebration after Mass. Ok, maybe i wasn't IN the hall at all for it. Was doing an unofficial duty with Michael Ee. Yup. Haha. Oh how i dislike J Liew. He screwed up the GOH duty! He made them come out after the teachers went in. I mean, then what about the procession?! The most important people and flags dun have GOHs? WTH? So what if J Liew's funny, i just dun like his attitude. Stupid Mofo, keeps coming into our class to give us reprimandings. As if it was his life to do it.

Found out i was IC for the SJIOBA duty. Oh gosh, i only volunteered to do it, i didn't expect to be in charge....! It's gonna be tough man.. 6-9pm. Tuesday nite. Woots. wonder if that's an excuse for not doing homework. Haha, most prob not. OMF wun give a shit bout it. Period.

After all that, we had Founder's day relays! Woots! Hah, How Fintan House Rocked. The only reason why we didn't put our 4X200 team for 4X300 was becos i wanted to shut some ppl from other house mouth up. *hint hint. So i guess lawrence house got it's just deserts, especially those of you in class who's always been putting our house down. Eat your own words man! How does it feel to be THRASHED by the house you looked down on for so long? And it's totally unfair i didn't get to run for the TAF run. Humph!

Went to Mc's to study after all the school stuff ended. It was the day i stoned for the longest period of time. While there, i realized how awfully bad my A-math was. How much practice i needed. How i sucked at it. Spent like 5 hours there, only completing only about 20 questions. Mel came about 4, if i'm right. I stayed there from 1 - 5pm. Then went over to church to meet ada and lucus.

There we waited for another three hours for mass to start. How many hours did i spent doing nothing? I figured about 7 1/2. = Scary. THey had reserved like alomost 35 benches for all the VIPs of the night. Even brother Mike got a seat. He was sitting with a buddist monk and infront of the Taoist guy. Lolz. Steph was so overly obsessed with the toaist guy's beard. Lolz. A pity he didn't wear his high hat. So we sat on the top. Got the bench right at the front. So we had quite a good view. Squeezed 10 ppl into our bench. Was really squeezy. I ws like sitting sideways during the homily. Then mel was like so sleepy. So i showed her a little something, hopefully waking her up abit. ^^ Friar Mike was there too! Lol. He came up to give holy communion. Wanted to go get it from him, but luc went ahead first. So nvm. Lolz. I winked at him! Wahaha.. Went home super shagged. School next day.

Twelfth Night play was on at 7:30. Took a cab with javier to cine. Played arcade. Met Nigel and John, ate, and played arcade again. OooooOoooo, stress rellief after so long. Each bullet fired carried all the negative things in me. Think i fired close to a thousand times. Or at least it felt so. Hand was tired after the second round. Rushed to the DBS arts center for the play. Saw quite alot of my primary school-mates there. All in St. Gabriel's sec. Haha, only one of them could still recognise me. The play was quite well done. Except the roles of the main characters. I expected a little more of them actually. Instead, it was characters like Sir Toby and Maria who stood out. Heh. But Feste didn't dissapoint. I felt that he was good.

Went to look for Mrs Chong after the play, ate pizza. Lolz. IT was late. Didn't know how i was gonna get home. Lucky for me, Mrs chong could send me to Khatib Mrt. Woots. As for nigel and the rest, i really had to praise them for making their trip back.

So yeah, saturday's competition was disastrous.

P.S: To all My RCIY buds, I miss all of ya Loads!

2005-04-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

Taken up into heaven and given eternal life.

Late Pope John Paul II.

Dun feel too sad. He's happy there.

2005-04-02T19:15:00.000+08:00

My cuzzin left on Wednesday, i'm missing all of them, her especially. Yes, it was fun listening to all that she had to tell, wish i could've spent more time with her.

Sunday night, slept late. Tried to finish up as much homework as i could after that dinner with cuzzin. Bought her a stuff doggie to remember me by. Yup.

Monday, training, injured my back again, and again, and again. I'm sick of it. Damn. Think i'm gonna have to go see a physio.. =( Slept late again, tried to finish chinese project. Bought skittles, sour ones, to stay awake in class.

Tuesday, ah, Dead tired. Bought skittles again. things aint getting better. Inter house Shotput competition. Argh, no time to study for chinese test next day. Begged Edmond to help me finish up Chinese project. Thanks alot. Got second for comp. One silver medal. Reached home bout 11:45 on tuesday night after dinner at esplanade with cuzzi for the last time. Had to finish up a chinese project. Slept at 1am.

Wednesday, Half-lifed. Bought skittles once again. It's suddenly becoming like a drug to me, to stay awake. Chinese test, did it quite easily. Amazed at myself. But still dunno how much i got. Highest in class was only 77. Training, threw alot, back injured again. Jumped alot, calf muscles hurt.

Thursday, things were finally slacking down. Phew. A GREAT sigh of relief. But just then, Math trail hit me. Still had that to do. Damn. Wasted the afternoon in school trying to do the trail, to no avail. Didn't have the stuff to do it. Came home bout 5. Finally, a day where i could get an afternoon nap. Woke up at 7, ate dinner, went back to sleep. No work done. Needed to replenish lost sleep for the past few days.

Friday, hmm, photo-taking. Took for track&field, prefectorial board, SSVP and MM. They really should have PSLs, just like they have it for PSFs. Missed A math lesson. Started on new chapter. Damn, think i'm gonna die. Haiz. Price to pay. Played soccer straight after school. Was damn shagged when training started. Screwed shotput. Hope to do better for saturday's competition. Got a call from Luc, went to help him at Ada's prom nite. Knew you were there, wanted to ask if you wanted to come, but saw that you were in the midst of a dance, so just walked on.

The design of the cafe in the hotel we went to was better than it's food. Table was legless. Yup. it was held up by wires. Very nice. But the waiters were pretty gay. Erps. Nvm. Ada's prom nite room was nice. Small but cosy. Was supposed to take pictures for her. Everybody went, "Came directly from school?" cos i was in School U. Everything felt awkward at first, cos i really didn't know anyone there. Luc was playing the music at one coner, the coner where we spent most of the night. A couple of the ppl there shocked me. Told them i was ada's fren when they asked who i was. Then the response was, "Boyfriend?" Of cos not! "i'm fifteen!" i said. What came next was very unusual. "Haha, gurls prefer young guys now anyway". = Shocking. Other shock was when another lady said, "Aiya, too young.." Gosh. Was i seen as a ........ nvm.
Whole thing ended at 12.00am. Came home at 1am. Fell asleep in Luc's parent's car. Was just utterly shagged after such a long day. Took a bath and just dozed after.

It's Saturday. Woke up about 9, went back to sleep more, ended up waking at 10.30. watched pokemon, gransazers, gundam seed. Then went for competition. Thank you for the encouragement on the way to my comp. It's real sad i've gotta wait so long to see you. I'm missing you badly. Two weeks seem very long a time. Got 7th for comp, met my expectations. Stupid judges screwed up, made us wait so long. On top of that it was raining. Haiz. Anyways, i'm pretty ok with the results. Hope i'll do better for Javelin. [deleted]

Felt very hungry after a nap on the train. Went to buy wanton mee to eat. It was delicious. Yum. But still wasn't enough. Drank Cup-A-Soup. Still hungry, Wootz, God heard me, call from neighbour to go over to get chiken rice. Haahaa. Had my stomach filled. I'm happy.

That's bout it this week.

P.S: Guys, pray for a peaceful departure for the Pope. He's really seriously in bad condition. Pray not for him to continue in this state, but rather for him to go peacefully.

End of Lent, Start of Easter.

2005-03-27T17:03:00.000+08:00

Yupz, Easter's Today!! Happy Easter everyone!

Went for Maudy Thusday Mass, after which went to Ada's place for the Meal. Yum Yum. Wine was good, Matzah was good, lamb was good. Ate quite alot. Yet, still not more than you. Haha, i guess ur still the best at quantity eating.

So went to St. Joseph's church after that for the way of the cross. I guess we were all rather tired. Hmm, or maybe it was just cause it was supposed to be that way, quiet, reflective. Reflective indeed, two stations hit me like head on. Did some major thinking that night.
Bus ride home was short. First to get down. Noticed you dozed off, long day for you huh, with CIP and all, i guess you were indeed shagged.

Service on Good Friday had another whole set of kneeling. Regretted wearing jeans cos i was kneeling on the zippers. But i figured i had to feel pain, just like the journey of HIM, so i didn't mind. Lucky you, you had a jacket, while the rest of us were cold. >.<

Everyone in my row was wearing black and jeans, almost evryone looked indentical. Lolz. By the end of that day, i thought about how many times i had knelt since wednesday, and a total of 54 times was the answer. Haha.

Saturday, woots, the BIG DAY. Woke up early. Had to go Ritz Chalton to have breakfast with my cuzzin and family. Nice breakfast they had there. Nice toilets too. Didn't eat much though, it was quality over quantity. Then walked Suntec, Raffles, City Hall with my cuzzin and uncle and mum. Enjoyable. Of cos it was, who wouldn't enjoy a walk through these places with such a beautiful gurl. Please do not get the wrong idea. Started to drizzle, but it was almost towards the end of the walk. Hadn't noticed, but we actually walked bout 2hrs. It seemed all so short. Maybe cause i was too engrossed in listening to my cuzzin talk bout her school in States and all. It was really cool, the way their school was there.

Came back, heavy rain. Slacked around, didn't feel like doing work on the big day. Hmm. Went online, chatted awhile. Was super hoping the time would come for me to leave. So when it did, i quickly did what i had to and dressed up. Amazed how good i looked. Ohhoho, ego. :p

Was hoping to pass you ur pressie before baptism, but yeah, nvm. Either way you would've gotten it, and I'm really glad you like it. Then it hit me, 'Whoa, this is it, baptism'. It's one which i could never forget in my life. Well, two reasons to it. One being because of how your baptism went, just before mine, and how Father Lorazo was so Hilarious. lolz. Never gonna forget how it went. Never.

At the end of it all, i didn't expect so many presents. I had forgotten it was MY baptism too. Was just busy getting yours done. Didn't had plans on receiving any. Honest. Well, lucky i brought a big bag. Haha. Oh, ppl, guess what, i had two of the same presents. How cool is that? Lolz. I luv me presents. The ones i luved most was my new ring! Mummy bought it for me. =)
And what i appreciated most was from you. Mmm, indeed. All because of one word. One which just boosted my feelings. Yup. Haha, how common that words was, but maybe cos it came from you, it was special.

Took alot of pics! yup yup. i'm happy! i've got memories of my baptism to keep. Haha, but i dun have YOURS!!! =( I dun care, ur gonna take one with me. And yup. i'll take out my camera out for you to see next time. If not later u accuse me of not showing you again. = U luhs, i take out also never see, busy eating... Haha. So next time k?

Took pics of all my pressies too, i'll upload them when i have time. Haha. I'm gonna die this coming week, haben done so much work. And next week's busy too. Haiz. God save me pls.

Easter Mass today. Lolz, was quite, different. Things felt different. The thought of us receiving communion together with all the other ppl. It was a great feeling that way. Another different thing was that, hmm, you t'ndid tis txen ot em. it's funny. Cos you usually did, and i was still trying to get used to it. But it doesn't matter right? we were all there together. =)

Went to Steph's place to eat lunch. Yummy Yummy food. Godma's cooking rocks too. Haha, then just chilled out in jeromme's room till 2:30, eating chips and ice cream, then came home. Trying to do some work now. Got dinner later. Big dinner, with cuzzin and fam. Yeah. Gonna take pics!! To show that desperate few who wans to see her so badly in school. Haiz. Pity you guys.

PS. : I've learnt that some things they said in Hitch are true. It worked for me at least.

Nice, Very nice presents.

2005-03-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

Waha, Bro mike's present are like totally totally cool?

This crucific together with four bottles. Each containing, Olive, Incense, Earth, and Water from the Holdy land. WHoaoaoa.. lolz.

And AND! A rosary which is like TOTALLY mystical. The beads are like coloured deep dark purple and it's like... like... WHOA... haha. Lost for words.

THanks Brother!

That place.

2005-03-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Walking there, peering in, hoping for people.
Wishing hard,walking slow, to look round for you.

Sometimes, it's blank, emptiness.
Other times, there're black, joy.

For one time, my eyes met you.
But usual, many others.

Special, has that place become.
Close, will it be for year.

.

2005-03-21T16:47:00.000+08:00

Thought you would (T) her,
But everytime you faultor.
You wonder when you'll be braver,
To finally be an actor.

2005-03-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

Maybe going back to school isn't such a bad idea at all.

2005-03-19T12:46:00.000+08:00

So you're back to square one. After all he had done for you, you wasted it. You keep on pouring your problems to me, but are you trying to take any actions to solve it? Is it you yourself who is the problem? Of course you will think not, but the truth is, you decide how you should feel. So dun blame the others, dun blame the person. All you do is come back, thinking this, thinking that, thinking all sort of negative stuff and telling me you wan to just get away from all these. But after each time, you just go back, and now's another good example. What's wrong with you? What happened to the carefree times of last time? When you didn't even have to worry over these kinda stuff? The choice is still yours, it has always been. It's just if you have enough courage to pick it up, and not let the weight bear you down.

A day spent with Lucas.

2005-03-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

Yup, spent the day at Luc's place. Haha, i slept till bout noon. :p

Heard my phone vibrate, didn't want to get up to read the msg. Told myself i wouldn't get up, not even if it were you. Oh damn, i can't believe i actually thought that way. So it started vibrating again after some sleep. Felt more like waking up, and realised it was almost noon.

Took a bath, ate lunch, and went to Luc's place. Got there bout 1pm. Haha. We were supposed to be doing our work. But till now, i haven't relly officially finished any subjects of my homework. Started with History, highlighted here and there, read up a few pages bout Sun Yat-Sen. Ah, i'm knowledgeless bout China. Poor poor me took two hours trying to read and understand 6 pages. And that's just the highlighting part. I'm supposed to make notes and complete a worksheet bout it, which i never got down to doing.

Took a break at 2:45. Went online and tried to enter schooldna. But as always, it was access denied for me. Sianz, so nvm. Talked with luc, talked talked, then he was obsessed with the game i had in my phone. Trying to beat my high score and all. Which he ended up achieving luhs. Yeah, then he had to go type some stuff in a message and accidentally send it to you. You dun know how utterly shocked i was when i saw what he had sent. i was like going "OH DAMN!" over and over again. Ok, at least he made the effort to send you a msg to explain things. But that conversation you two had. Hmm, heard only part of it. Yeah. But what do you mean by "Directions"? And i really dun understand Luc. The things you use to describe the situation are somehow, complex. lolz.

Oh damn, the words 'Another one bites the dust' never sounded so funny. And the Pokemon Rap never sounded so scary. Yeah, dun ask me what i mean, cos it's really horrifying. Yeah, so we gossiped bout a certain someone we all know, and how Luc would wanna be a matyr and all..
Then Luc got kinda gay and read some words off the dictionary. Yeah, i've got videos of them. Muahaha, it's rated M18 man. Yeah.. none of you should see it.

But honestly, i think i should thank you. You've somehow helped me to express thigns which would've taken me like alot of ass whoopin to do. Haha. Yeah. And it turned out quite well i suppose? It's how i ACT now isn't it. Yeah, hope i dun dissapoint you. Haha. Maybe i should go get the things i told you bout. But dunno go time anot. Must choose nice nice one somemore. Good luck tomolo. God Bless.

Now you know how i feel. And i'm impatiently waiting to know how you feel too. So please dun keep me waiting for long. Please please? It's pretty unfair that you know and i dun right? -.-#

15th Years on this planet.

2005-03-16T02:42:00.000+08:00

The best Birthday I had in many years. Spent with you, my special family.

Woke up early to head to school for SSVP workshop today. Evrything went on smoothly. Somehow, being the ones organising the workshop feels totally different form the ones participating. But i'm sure everyone benefitted from the workshop.

I just got a little pissed with the sec 2's. Shan't name who, but yeah. It seems like, we're trying not to be too harsh, too strict with them. We wanna be on their level, and not like up there commanding them, but they seem to climb all over us. Yes, we're doing our work, at the table, working with the cameras, laptops and stuff. Usually, you dun go bother the committee when they do thier stuff right? But NuUuuU, they've gotta crowed all around us, and we can't do our stuff properly. It's hard to get them in order, while being thier friend. And it's even more difficult to maintain that kind of firm status, while trying to not overpower them.

Anyways, i just felt really really tired after the workshop. Was trying to rest up a lil in the canteen after everyone left. Gathered eveything, went to the toilet and changed and freshened up. Felt much better. Called Tim, went to PS to play arcade, then to orchard MRT to meet luc, and to seoul gardern to eat.

You Surpringingly came before the other two. Was glad to see you, as i always was. Kev came shortly after that. But mel took some time.

From the moment i saw you, i knew something was wrong. Tried to ask, but you seemed to just not wanna talk bout it. Sure, i understand. Just was super duper uder bupler worried when i saw those. I ate with a heavy heart after seeing them. Somehow, the night just didn't seem to carefree anymore. Delighted to see you smile at church. Relieved you at least were in the mood to smile and take pictures. I'm really very happy that everything's alright now. That you've solved the stuff. Promised me you wun do it again. I'll hold ya to it. Remember, you always have me caring for you. Dun make me worry ya? You're me dear sister. Luv ya loads. Take care.

Sad i'm not seating with you or mel. Felt, like, "damn, wasted". Haha. But at least we're still one group. Erm, hope you dun mind what they're all obviously trying to do. But i admit i dun object to what they do.. erm, Ok, might sound a lil overly erm, dunno how to say. But yeah. It's always a pleasure to be around you, yeah, for obvious reasons too.

Luc, take care there bro. Dun let others pressure you. Dun try to put up a strong front for everyone. After all, we're all inter-dependent. We support each other when in need, and i'm sure there are always people whom will be there for you. I'll always be here at least. Good luck on thursday, may eveything turn out fine. God bless.

Thanks alot for all your presents today. The most i ever had in years. Yeah, luved every single one of it. Especially, the more, erhem, quoted from someone "Lustfully cool" ones. Yeah, haha, thanks alot for eveything. You've made a memorable 15th birthday for me.

And thank you all whom wished me happy b'day. Sorry i didn't reply to all of ya, cos i was in school. But they were certainly received by me. Thanks all of ya out there!

2005-03-14T11:34:00.000+08:00

STACIE ORRICO
"(There's Gotta Be) More To Life"

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

[Chorus]
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

i'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

[repeat chorus x2]

Talking, crying, shouting.

2005-03-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Bro, you're still the best guy i've got.

Thanks alot bro, you're still the one whom i can tell EVERYTHING to. You just rock. Every sad, sorrow, happy, joyous, moments i can share with you. There's just nothing between us. Time, space, they pose no barrier between us. I know you feel the same too.

Talked, cried, shouted.

Bro's for now, bro's for life.

Just ignore this.

2005-03-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

You're stupid, you're dumb,
You're making it numb.
Your heart, it crumbles,
You're asking for trouble.
You've played the game,
You've made no gain.
You've earned regret,
You'll have to forget.

Run away now,
It's not a 'Wow'.
The longer it lasts,
The shorter the past.
Face it, you lost,
Pay the due cost.
You dared pick it up,
You're dared to let it down.

Stop thinking so much,
It's no use as such.
A better path for you,
The old journey's due.
Dun be at loss,
Things are a 'was'.
Throw the regrets out,
Give it one last shout.

AAaaAaaAARrrRrRrRgGggggGHhhHhhH!
GET OUTTA MY LIFE,
I DUN NEED YOU NOW!

Pisces Season

2005-03-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

Pisces - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring.

Sweetness -

you're the most romantic person your parnter has ever met.

You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with.

Your negative traits:

You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood.

It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should.

You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest.

Your ideal partner:

Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreams

Is a total romantic, with an artistic or creative side

Loves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways

Your dating style:

Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners.

Your seduction style:

Fearless -

you try what your parnter suggests, no matter how unusual.

Loving -

You'll take your pleasure second, if necessary.

Internal-

A lot of your enjoyment takes place within your head.

Tips for the future:

Be more realistic.

Your romantic ideal is nice, but it may just not happen.

Let go of your fear of rejection - it's holding you back from being with your true love.

Open yourself up to a new love.

The person you think you want may not be the one..

Best color to attract mate: Seafoam green

Best day for a date: Friday

Off Darrick's blog.

Last Week of Term 1,

2005-03-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

A pretty fast week it was. COnsisting of four school days only. Friday was PTM day, so we didn't have lessons. Yeah.

My back still hurts whenever i train. It's making me so angry. Cos it's preventing me from throwing properly, and also screwing up my technique. So yeah. I really do hope it's nothing that serious and that it will go away.

Thinking back on the week itself, i can't relly remember anything interesting. Guess it's must've been a very plain week. But one of the things i remember is knowing that you were there that day. Couldn't find you in the midst of all ur frenz. I mean, i found it difficult to look in, cos i tried and i saw many many pairs of eyes looking back at me, so i just avoided that awkward feeling.

Missed stations of the cross this week cos Mr Sim asked us to stay back for extra class on Wednesday. He says our class is lagging big time. To me, i'd rather think he's lagging big time to realise that our class was lagging. Well, at least he's making an effort to catch up. So i guess we can't really explain much.

I'm so proud of my ex-class. We actually have three people from 206 topping their class this yeat. Lolz. It's great. While others got like really "high" positions, that's cos they're in classes filled with scholars and smart arses. :s Hm, as for me, i got a surprising 3rd in class. Actually it was 5th, but cos they sorta made a mistake with my marks, so went "down" two positions. L1B5 was 13. I dunno if that's good enough or not. But all i know is that i failed A-math. :( Seniors say it's normal the first time, so i'm just using that to console myself. But yeah, definitely gonna do better next time.

I dunno whether i should be glad that the hols are here. Things i look forward to would be my b'day and all the going out and stuff, but there're also things which make me not wanna go through this break. Homework piled up on wednesday, and killer homeworks dropped on us on thursday. Now i have like homework for all subjects except english.
Just so if i forget my homework, and for john's sake, or anyone in my class,

Chinese proverb research.
Physics green book questions.
Chemistry chapter 5 worksheets
Lit Text-based question
SS and History reading and worksheets
E-Math trail project
A-math independent Learning.
PE journal-the gym thing.

So yeah. Hope i'll be able to get down to doing it. Cos aside from these, i've still got stuff on for CCA. But i dunno if i'm going, cos i'm sick, AGAIN. Yeah, it sucks. Hopping i'll get well enough to eat on tuesday, cos i dun wanna kill my throat. Doctor said if i dun get well, i might just have to use an inhaler. :( So yeah, pray to God.

Why are you doing these things to me?
Don't you know how i feel after you've done them?
Are you totally oblivious to what you are doing?
Foiling the things i do.

Yet i can't bring myself to blame you.
Cos it's utterly stupid if i did it.
Please STOP.
Cos it's hard for me to recover from that lousy feeling.
And everytime i manage to do so,
You put me off again.
So STOP.

P.S :Oh, and congratz Javier. Seems like things happened a year earlier for you. Good luck and wishing you all the best. Sorry bout the things i say bout her, but that's my veiwpoint of things la. So yeah, as long as you're happy, i'm happy for you too. :) Praying you won't be one of the many "eliminated" ones.

A quick Sunday.

2005-03-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

I've got Godparents, yay! My mum can finally stop nagging at me to find them now. Oh, actually i've got more then just godparents, i've got a godbro and sis too! How cool is that? Haha.

Church today was usual. Except we had this father from another parish that came for i dunno what reason. Foudn out just moments ago he was the one talking about all the sacraments on the disc my mum used to listen to. Yeah, how cool is that. You've gotta agree with me that his speaking was better then our parish priest. It's just that sometimes i have to really try to keep my laughter from bursting out when he celebrates the mass. :s

Anyways, went to church with mummy. Rained just before we went out. Haiz. So had to cary umbrella. Met Tim at the MRT and Steph at the other one. We weren't late! Yay! Infact i think we were the first to reach there after Marc, Ada and Luc. :) Tim made a big effort to leave his house at 9:30. Haha. I was watching Spongebob till 9:30. Lolz.

Oh, Mel, your dress looked really cool. Honest! I like the stars.. hahah. And you too. Moment i look at you i was like, "Woot, she's looking good." Noticed your shoes too, very nice. Hmm, nvm, everything bout you to me is nice anyway. :p mel dun jealous. >.< Oh, and take care of your wherever is painful. Haha, dun fall again!

Then after mass went to steph's place for lunch, and to meet my soon to be godparents. Actually, i was feeling pretty scared. I duno why, just the 'meet the parents' jitters. haaha. But yeah, everything turned out fine. =) Had lunch, watched "fat albert" then just chilled in Jerome's room. Hmmz, i think it's the first time i'm experiencing brother-sister quarrels. Oh man, they were going on non-stop. = Haha, but i guess that's all part and parcel of sibling life. :p Oh, glad i'm the only child. Wahaha.

So i'm looking forward to baptism night. It's gonna be so cool. Gotta go but a new shirt. Yeah, now i'm back home and my mum's waiting to make me study chinese. I dunno why she thinks my chinese is bad. She claims she is not htinking that way, says she just wans me to "improve". But to me, it's rather, "You're not good enough." Aiya, wat to do.. Mothers. Hahah..

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1st week of March

2005-03-05T16:57:00.000+08:00

A very busy week. Tired, fell sick.

Yeah, after the sad incident on Monday, we all thought we would be sick. But thank God, He protected us. Most of us made it to school the next day with our books dried. Bought new shoes, cos old pair was wet. But the new pair hurt, for some funny reason, thought it was the same size as the old pair. But i still ahd to wear it anyways. Yeah, SSVP had soccer, so played. Got my last toe on my left leg blistered, badly. Skin was torn, flesh was red, pain. Had to go for taining after that too. Weights. Ouch. My coached applied yet another of his fokology on it, and tapped it up tight. Ok, wasn't so bad then. Fokology actually works. Hooray!

Was really hungry and tired. Yeah, saw dy after his band, so asked him if he could offer a ride to his place for me to take a cab home. Went to tanglin to meet ivan, whom also was gonna get a ride. Yeah. Saw some familiar shirts there, so was wondering if you were there too. Figured you had gone cos there was very few of them left. Yeah. Dy's grandpapa took quite long to come. Finally got on the car at 7? or maybe later than that. Expressway was Jammed pack. Got stuck at that two lane road leading to IJTP that side. Waited and waited till near 8. FInally got out. Ivan reached home, and Dy's grandpapa kindly drove me home cos my leg was really painful and i couldn't wear my shoe to walk. I got sent home for two days. =)

Found out the reason why my shoe ws hurting was cos i tied the "tongue" of the shoe together with my shoelace. Yeah, they didn't hurt anymore, but my blister still did.

Wednesday was hectic after school. It seems to me now that the things which wear me down isn't what goes on DURING curriculum time, but rather what happens AFTER it. Got a note from Mdm Lee saying there was a meeting at 3.30. So ok, noted. Went for Stations after school, them MM Meeting. I'm still unsure if it is officially my third CCA. Yeah, so went for it, then for the SSVP meeting. Was suppoed to plan for the workshop during the hols, which is nicely placed on my b'day. So yeah, Randall and Robin had evil looks on thier faces when i told them. A gurl called chui san was supposed to help us run it. Together with some of her frenz that is. Amazingly she was only 16. I was expecting a much older person. Yeah, so we managed to get that done by around 5pm.

Then i went for my my core CCA. Yeah, training was still on as usual. But i went super late. But coach insisted i changed and train. So ran a round, stretched, and there came the order. "300! 300! 200! 200!" I was like, "Coach, i got blister on my leg leh!!" And the usual reply came, "I dunno! RUN!" Haiz.. Run lorz.. Weather was bad, leg was bad, back was bad. Alot of bads. Ran the first 300 in 52s, "erps, why so fast?!" i was asking myself. Passing mark was 65s. =( Yeah, but i almost died. My body was already hurting from weights session, especially my thighs. Then still run.

But yeah, i officially attended THREE CCA's in a day. Achievement. Yay. -.-"ll

True enough, i felt sick on thursday. But still ahd to host a visit from Nigel, John, Gerald, and Sai Chuen to my house for some history group work. :s Ate KFC at T.P. Then came my house. The work took only 10 mins. I was like, -.- didn't even have to use the com.. wth?! but aiya, watever, i wasn't in the mood or state to complain. Anyways, it was the first time my whole secondary school life that my frenz came to my house. Yeah, it seems like such a long time.

Went to see a doc after that. I was utterly sure i was running a fever. But the doc took my temp off head. I was really questioning the accuracy of it. He got 37.1. No fever, wow, but i felt like 37.8. I was feeling cold in normal temperature.

Nevermind, took the tabs when i came home, and added one panadol to the two. Cos i knew myself. I was having fever. Went to bed at 8. Had a bucket of ice and water, with two towels beside my bed. i was prepared to face my fever. Was icing both my neck and head. Yeah, i had to get that feevr down if i was ever gonna make to school on friday. Cos the doc didn't gimme an MC! =( Not that i wanted to miss lessons anyway.

Mummy came back, i was half asleep. Felt her changing the towels for me. Went comfortably back to sleep while she did it. Sometimes i wonder how can i hate her so much when she nags at me. Though i know sometimes she's right and sometimes she's not.

Heard my phone ringing, was wondering who it could be. A Prayer heard. Your name was there. I remebered, i had asked God, that if you had called, i'd be cured. How he likes to do these kinda things to me huh. I mean, i'm not saying i dun like it, actually in fact, it's exact opposite. Yeah, suddenly i was feeling alright, cos i wasn't feeling cold when the fan blew anymore. But it started getting a lil colder when we hung up. I knew it was coming back, so i put on the towels again. And went peacefully to sleep.

Struggled though friday, hoping it would end soon. Was really regretting that i couldn't swim for the carnival. But i guess we did ok. At least we got a second in one of the races. But anyway, Good job ya'll! Especially you John, you were better than anyone and everyone of those whom didn't dare to take up the challenge of joining the competitive, so dun let ppl like ruben put you down. He's a talk big coward who didn't even dare to take up the challenge. He has no right of talking bout you.

Came home, slept. Was tired. Very. Lao Ma woke me up, reminded me to go for church. Damn, was late. All i could think about was not meeting Tim and Steph, but you.

The Night.

Is it getting anywhere? Not to me.

I'm confused with certain stuff, on my bed.

Wondering why things just happen to contradict each other.

Just thrown the thought out, and slept, and dreamt.

My dreams often go back to my primary school. I dunno why. They all relate the things that are happening to me now, together with the things i want to happen, back to my primary school. but I dunno if it's good to have these dreams. Cos they're a fantasy, which is not real. And what matters is the reality. :s Yet they help me wake up, feeling good, feeling fresh. Yet another contradiction. :@

P.S: i dunno wat i wan for my B'day. I never had knew what i wanted. Maybe cos i dun usually get stuff. :s

Dragonboat Disaster Day, with a touch of God

2005-03-05T15:56:00.000+08:00

Last day of feb was quite a disaster. It was SJI's First ever inter-house Dragonboat.

Of cos it was at Kallang. Yeah, all went there happily expecting to win and have fun. But it was really an unlucky day. Fintan's sec 1 team didn't even enter cos they couldn't put a team together. I was like WTH? But couldn't help it luhs, too late already.

Sec three team was quite strong. Think we had the most number of canoeists in our house. So 24 man race came first. All started quite well, untill the race was just about to start. Our cockstern forgot to raise the rudder when we were backing up towards shore and the piece of wood attatching the rudder to the boat kinda got yanked, and half of it kinda got detached. = Yeah, it was like a big 'UH O". But we still continued, cos as if they would stop the race to allow us a change of boats.

So the race started, we were kinda in the lead, if not second to michael house. Yeah, then suddenly we started going left.. left.. more left. Turned around to see wat was wrong and to everyone's horror on the boat, our rudder broke off...! WTH!? Hopes of first, or even second, or even third just broke, together with our rudder. Sad. We were all like "DAMN".

Lawrence house was like facing the wrong direction, so we thought we could like get third. But the PE teachers didn't allow us to carry on, cos they said we'd be wasting time. Grr... So i had to use my paddle as a rudder, and believe me, it was really painful when i tried to turn the boat. It was like 23 other ppl's force on my paddle. Ouchness, thought my left arm was gone.

Ok, the thing broke, and we lost. Thought it was bad enough, but Teo actually asked us to get another boat from the place where they kept the extras. WTH!? Ran back with Qin Rui and John and some others followed. Wa lau, was like running with stones and water in my shoes. Ok, they hurt, but wat to do, had to get another boat back.

So we managed to get bout 5 mins rest after that, Ms Wee kindly gave us some root beer to drink, then 12 man race was up. We seriously thought we could win 12 man. This time, we didn't brake the rudder. Rain was coming, it started drizzling. Started off strong, led bout 3/4 of the race. But i guess fatigue took it's toll on us. Ended up losing to Michael house by a metre? I guess it's cos of the EXTRA work we had to do by getting the EXTRA boat. Humph, unfair.

Ok, things seriously couldn't get any worst. But I wonder what had made God so sad or touched that he cried on us. Perhaps on our misfortune? Haha, anyways, it started pouring like no one's business. All our bags got wet, and of cos us too. Ran for our lives to a pavillion like 200 metres away with john. Lucky he was there to carry my bag, cos my arms were gonna drop of after the race. Thanks alot John. Yeah, saw eng wei, dy, jian hao, ivan, hoong taa, janan, sai chuen, and some others there too. All drenched to the skin. I was like really really thirsty, so i went to the toilet beside us to get a drink from the tap. Desperate.

So we tried to keep warm at the pavillion, cos not only the rain got heavier, even the wind too, picked up. First time i ever felt Singapore so cold. We were all so sure our books were gone, and we were gonna fall sick. Took pictures there to kill time, had this one with eng wei and his super weird hairstyle. I'd have uploaded it if only my usb cable wasn't spoilt. =(

Then Ivan's dad called me to ask where he was. He was like F***ing Benard Teo on the phone lorz.. I thought he was joking when he said that, but i found out from him that he REALLY was scolding him. I was utterly shocked, jaw dropped. Lucky for us, he picked some of us up and drove us to somewhere where there was a better shelter. Then things started to look up, well, at least for me. He offered to drive me, janan, and dy back. Yeah, lucky bums we are.

God had sent this angel to help us, the few of us at least. I'm sure he had helped the others to reach home safely too. Anyways, went to Ivan's house and took a nice warm bath there. His new house was really nice. haha, it was like beside Fann Wong's house? Haha, i dun care actually. Yeah, had a very very full dinner at the prata shop. I ate so much. Maybe to replenish all i had put in dragonboat. Yeah, then his dad sent me back home after dinner. =)

A cold day.

2005-02-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

I dreamt of owning a plane!

Went to church today. Was quite pissed though. Woke up at 9.30, took a bath and went to the mrt to meet tim at 10. But he msged me bout 9.45 to tell me he was gonna bathe. I was shocked. Ok, maybe he could hurry and get there, but noooo, i was wrong. Sat there, watched the trains pass me by for about 25 mins. Then i called him and he said he was on the bus. The more pissed i got. Then he called back to tell me to go first. Phew..

Ok, yeah, i was pissed, but i cooled down, with help from mel. Yeah. Here's a short prayer to the person whom died in the accident, or so mel said.

'Lord, please guide the soul of the departed to ur kingdom, and maybe he rest in peace together with you and the angels in your eternal kingdom in heaven. AMEN'.

Well, hurried to church and saw marcus there. Went up and looked around for the group. Saw Marese and Mel on the other side while walking down the center, so aiya, just sit here lorz. But seriously, should've went over. Sorry for not listening to u mel! Rained during mass, suddenly it got cold. Lucky i was with long sleeves. Yeah, i didn't know why i wore long sleeves to0, but i'm glad it was of use.

You were there too, first person i saw at the door was you too. But i didn't go there, i dunno why. A short 5 m seperated us, how easy it was to just go over to say 'hi'. Yet we just left without contact. Not even a word. Now i regret not going over? Right, maybe i'm being too fickle bout these small details, yeah, i dunno.

It's raining now too, sky's so dark. Suddenly realised i've got so much more work to do than to just study for lit test tomolo. But somehow the regret in me is making me lazy to do anything else right now.. ah... Help me God.

He answers my prayers.

2005-02-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

Ok, this week started out really bad. Watched Black Hawk Down till 1 am, then studied for half an hour for E-math test on Monday. Yeah, woke up almost in a daze.. Haha, at least i knew i wasn't the only one who hadn't done my work. You were worst off right? Haha, yeah, couldn't even watch tv.. ah, sad.

Well, i managed to survive Monday's ordeal, went home to sleep right after school, pon training.. And just as i poned this very time, mr low looked for me this very day.. Wth..

Went to explain to him why i didn't go and told him i made up on tuesday.. lucky never get screwed. Screwed my back last week, it was like a split second when i threw, the pain just struck. Then from then on i didn't wanna throw no more. Bad Bad days at training. Just couldn't get the pain outta my head. Actually i kinda got back on form on Friday. But cos my back hurt, coach didn't allow me to throw. Aiyo, felt quite angry bout that. Stupid back. it seems it's alive, and took revenge on me, on the train on my way back home after church. It cramped on me, once again. The last time was on tuesday is i was correct. It Just got me stunned there for a few seconds. Bearing the pain of it all.

Had alot of test this week. Most in a week i ever had. Emath on monday, a math on thursday, SS on friday, english on thursday too. Lucky Mrs Chong postponed Lit to next monday, if not i wouldn't been on friday too. Heh. Thanks alot Mrs Chong, U rawk.

It never ceases to amaze me, how fast God response to ur prayers. I asked him to help me with the lack of sleep i was experiencing, to grant me the mood to survive the day. And so he did. It's like, "wow, he heard me". Cos he gave me some stuff to really help me wake up in the morning, ready to meet the day's obstacles. Yeah, he gave me you. Ok, maybe not you as in you, but another you. Ok, that makes no sense, except maybe to Deyong. Haha.

So yeah, see what a difference you make in my life? Lolz. you seem to be the only one i msg nowadays. Is it taking us anywhere though? Haven't seen you for two weeks now, and i'm missing the sight and company of you. Hope you have fun at camp, cos i was thinking of you though the class. And hopefully you'll be there tomolo.

So yeah, lit test on monday, seriously hope i can study tonight, cos i'm feeling quite slack now. haha, ciaoz.

P.S: JIAN HAO, believe i'm bloggin now!?

I'm finally home..

2005-02-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

Spent the past week at my grantaunt's house, as some of u know. Slept quite late almost everyday. Earliest was 11.30 i think. I'm just lucky i survived in school.

Went to KWSH on wednesday to put up the celebration for the old folks there. Sometimes I really do wonder how they feel being left there. I saw the uncle whom flared up the other time I was there. He seemed in a better mood this time round. Maybe cause we were performing? I also saw the uncle whom i spent almost an hour playing with. Ok, maybe i wasn't really "playing", it was more like, i was watching what he was doing, figuring what he was trying to do with the dominos and uno stackos. He kinda like put them in a form of formation, i thought i looked like buildings surrounding a river. Well, the nurse told me he still thinks he is 20 years old.. So.. :s But he was definitely more cheerful then the other one.

We had the language groups come with us to perform. I think the folks liked the indian lang's one. The dance they had, it could really put a smile on anyone's face. Then the folks had like 'yu sheng' and food.. I was running around finding the performers for my teacher. But at the end of it, i guess it was all worthwhile.

Took my Physics test on thursday after school cos i missed it on wednesday. Had like samuel tee opposite me doing his 对话. He struggled through most of it, but managed to pass, though not with good marks.. I, on the other hand was cruising through my paper. I didn't know if my answers were right, but i just wanted to get home quick, cos plan was for me to bring my great grand parents home that night from my grandaunt's house.

Then, it rained. : It was kinda mixed feeling, cos it hasn't rained for a long time, and finally now it could cool down. But watever, i still managed to get home. :)

Slept late again on thurday night, even when i got home! Was busy muggin for my history test, which i wanted to study long ago, but never got down to it. Ended sleeping without finishing studying.

Was fighting to stay awake during class on friday, it was yet another hot day. Had like three major work to do in class. First came english compre, then the dreaded history test, then chinese 作文.. It was like, brain juice draining. History test took up most of it. Had to write it in 25 mins. Handwriting on the paper went from bad to worst. But i somehow managed to remember my points and got it down.

Friday training was tough. Suddenly squats were so difficult to do. I came to a conclusion to always stretch before training, no matter how late i went. Cos on that friday, i just went straight to the weights. And now my arms are aching once again. :( Handphones were such a bother. Had to collect them from everyone and lock it away in a secret place. Instuctions were to distribute them out all at once. But they all had to leave one by one, so i ahd to run through anf fro from the place to givem back thier phones and wallets. Annoying. Missed so much training cos of it.

Went to Tanglin CC with Eng Wei and Michael lian for dinner. Had our hair all spiked up cos they were wet from the rain. Figured they would dry faster that way. Ended up forgetting to put it down and went to church. :p tried to comb it down when i saw it in the reflection off the window, but it just gor messier. Haha.

Tee's lesson was so like RME... Abortion is such a dilemma. But i guess wat came after session was more fun. Tee had such evil tricks up his sleeves.. Poor Shu Xian got smacked it the face twice.. And i can't believe steph actually has a pacifier... Lolz! Took a pic of her at macs suckin it. Just a like baby. Heh.

Well, i'm happy i'm home. I miss home. Slept a pleasurable 10 hours.. Had this cool dream where my uncle's fish could fly and breath outta water.. wth right?! But the nice thing was that we shifted house, back to Serangoon. But this time it had a basement. My house was like Stretched out. It had a little reality in it. I mean, it's like i just came back from my grandaunt's house to find that i had a whole new house. New location, and new room. Even had a maid..

I luved that room in my dream. It had all the things i wanted. A bigger bed, tv, computer, toilet. Maybe it'll come true one day. :)

Played the day away today even though i was supposed to study for my common tests next week. Think i'll be able to finish it tomolo.. haha..

Revenge Of The Mossys? Hah! Let's see who's more skillful!

2005-02-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Found myself with at least four mosquito bites. And on top of that, i was dealing with homework and a problem which just came up. I"m frustrated. VERY FRUTRATED. But Watever. I've finished my homework now, going to clear up the problem, and now i've got two live POWs. Yes, two live mosquitos in two seperate tic-tac boxes. My uncles had came up with the sick idea of killing them, for they caused so much problems. I killed two today, plus another one which i just squashed with my worksheets. So a total of three.

If they just bit me and flew away, i'd let them live. But the stupid thing is that when i kill them, they're bloodless. And on top of that, they come infront of me, fly and dance for a second, a fly away again. That's so insulting to me. So they're gonna get what they deserve. My uncle and i are gonna create a literal "Burning-In-Hell" scene for them. Happy Burning mossies... It's ur fault for coming to provoke us.

Sorry

2005-02-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

If you ever calm down and come here to read this, I'm real sorry. I didn't think he'll break his promise to me. I'm sincerly seeeking your forgiveness. I owe you one then.. i'll do anything, just once. Yeah. Sorry.

v-day: OUCH! ouch..

2005-02-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

14/02, the day many couples go on dates, married people try to stay together, teenagers give presents to those they love, and others just spend time with their good frenz, or just spend it doing somethings themselves.

i would say i belong to the last cat of people. Haha. Well, perhaps in between the second last and last. Spent my day training after school. Wasn't really in the mood to throw. Mainly cos i was feeling pain round my body. How they came? Well....

Played soccer, so everything was going on fine, i even scored a goal. Fine until i got smacked off the right side of my face by a volley from Kenneth. Yes, KENNETH. And for those of u who dun know him, u dun wanna get whacked by his ball, especially when it is in mid-air. It was like a shotgun just off the center of my face. Specs flew, pain just exploded. 'Ouch'. Yeah, my specs scratched the area just above my right eye. Blood came rolling down, and i just went to the toilet to wash it off. My specs was in pretty bad shape. Considaring the thick side frame it had, it still bent. Yeah, his ball was strong, i didn't have any doubt bout that. Heh, but hey, kenneth, it's not ur fault, it's part of the game. =)

Yeah, but after that game, it just thrown me into the mood of just wanting to go home. My left foot hurt once again, a slight pain in my back, and of course the pain at my eye. So yeah, didn't perform well at training. But i couldn't care less. I was waitng for something after training.

You've got me puzzled over ur matters. A moment you miss him, a moment you wanna ignore him, a moment you want him. Haha, i guess it's your story, i dun think i can help much. Cos the things i say or do may make things even worst. I just can't help thinking that you two are having such a drama story worthy or writing a book about. But hey, i pray you know what it is you want, and do things that will help yourself and him. =) And plz, plz try not to let gordon's heart turn to dust. Cos i feel the niceness to him you're showing if misleading him. :s That's just what i think though. And thanks again for helping with the stuff. Actually i didn't care too much about it anymore. I'm running away. : Yeah, i guess that's it. You'd most probly give me a beating when i next see you after reading this, but i just had to say it. Haha..

What you msged me, i read it on the way home. I didn't expect it. But it did give a "ouch" too. Cos i didn't expect the content to really be like that. It wasn't so bad, but it still caused an ouch. But yeah, i'm on a speedboat, speeding away from the sea of love. Waves of memories trying to push me back, but i'm still trying to get away.

Moody Mood.

2005-02-13T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hmmz, i was really moody today. I know why i am, but i just couldn't shake it off. Right from the start of the day actually, i just didn't feel it at Mass, mostly only after i reached back home.

It prevented me from doing my work. Tried to forget it by playing a lil game, but it bothered even my game. How sad. My Aunt here was telling me stuff which really dug into my head. Stuff which helps, but hurts too. But i didn't hold it against her, there wasn't any reason to, it'll be stupid to.

So, by 5pm, i figured i'd be wasting my time if i just continue to seek a way to rid of it, so the best way was to take a nap. Slept all the way till 7.40pm. Woke up, took dinner, and went to answer natures big call. Everything feels better now. I guessi should be rushing my homework now, but i just felt like typing this down. Haha.. ok, cya guys, gonna carry on my work now.

P.S: You should be getting it tonight, i'm just hoping for a response, then it'll just stop there, and everything will hopefully be put aside in my mind.

Father John Lee's last Sunday Mass

2005-02-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

It's sad, that he's leaving. I never thought i'd be close to him, and i wasn't, untill friday night. Over the dinner, over the small chat we had back in church, after you showed us the super big catfish in the grottho's pond which i never knew about. It's amazing. Today he celebrated his last Sunday Mass here in Singapore. He's leaving on Tuesday morning if i'm correct. He kept his promise to us at RC superstar. He sang us his last song. A very well sung song indeed, i bet many were brought to tears, if not, close to tearing. Even i almost had them come out of my eyes. It was just such a beautifully choosen song.

Many people Q-ed up to give Father John presents, Ang Pows, Letters, Hugs, and took pictures with him. I bet they were all missing him badly. My mum and i took a pic with him too. It was the last momento from him i guess.

Father John, you were looking for Mel after mass rite? She had to go, but she's coming abck for Monday mass tomolo. I'll be there too, to catch a last glimpe of you. Please do be there.

A day out. Then i reflect, realise, and decide.

2005-02-13T02:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah, today was just great, i can't describe it. It was just like, an event which just fufilled a couple of my wishes.

Went kayaking with Gordon, the one with problems with SF one, and has a Local ONE chasing, and you. Hoho, we went to the SSC, rental was closed for some reason. So we walked, supposedly 1.5 km, towards the Hawker Center. But just before we reached there, we saw this shop which rented kayaks too, so we rented a double and two singles for an hour. Many sec one and ace camp memories came back. The times we kayaked and it rained. This time i was lucky, we managed to get an hour.

Anyways, went to eat the samba stingray and satay after kayaking. It tasted really good. Gordon like had three cans of 100 plus.. Scary. Yup then went to Parkway parade, did some pair shopping thingee, then went back. Gordon had to leave for his uncle's house. Took a shower at their place and then went to novena with mel and her mum. Kev and nigel came too meet us after that. It was then i met the PSFs.. Oh man, meeting them together with mel, hmm, plz, dun go kill me in school with gossips. Just stay clear of it ok guys? Erm, i just hope u all didn't let the teachers hear it. Anyways, it's nothing to hide, it's just that stories tend to twist and turn as they get passed on.

Sqeezed into the car with kev, mel, nigel, and think it was auntie carol? Yeaps, and quickly got back before we got caught by any traffic police. Oh, i wanna say that your house seriously rocks. The design is DAMN nice. Seriously, especially the one opposite where we watch power rangers. I like the stairs in that house.

Here i once again thank you mel, and ur mum, for inviting me over. Every thing was great, from the start.

Mmmmm... i dunno how to say it, but it's like, i envied Mel and gordon. I just did. The way they like had all sorts of things to say to each other. The way they carried their conversation, the way gordon openly said the things he did. Though the things he said and the way he acts may seem immature, i still wished i had that kinda courage and guts. Well, did a fair amount of thinking while on the kayak, well, main reason why we were stuck out there for some time.. Surprisingly we sped back after i just powered my way through. But i just felt funny. Trying to strike up a conversation, but getting nowhere, or rather not getting anything to connect to a next part. They were like, start, stop, start, stop. I just couldn't find anything to say. I felt bad, wasting precious time, that kinda stuff. Maybe it's just something stopping me from progressing, maybe the thing is the way you are acting. In short, i feel like no reception. I dunno how to put it, but i just know it. Maybe you choose to be like that, or maybe u just dun know it, which is unlikely.. Or maybe it's just me, the way i'm not acting enough, or watever else it is. But yes, mel, i'm starting to understand that "special feeling" thing u meant. And i'm not feeling it. I kinda feel it, as though i'm in ur shoes. It's just not a good feeling. Yeah, that'll br probly why i'm not gonna do anything from monday on. Yeah, just gonna put it aside, and see what happens.

: Mel :
See? Ur not alone, ur bro here's gonna do something similar too. i'm sorta letting it go too. So dun prob me k? The chocs would most prob be the last thing i'll do, for now. I do admit i still like her, but just leave it as it is. I dun think it's jus the right time. And i think i'm growing tired. Though some might say i'm not persistent enough, i just feel i wanna leave it. But today, i just felt that i didn't do it. Not enough. Yeah. This game of hard-to-get, if it is, just gor boring for me. The small discussion we had bout u and dwi? I was a lil scared when u like suddenly got harsh bout the matter, that's why i just like agreed on everything. But seriously, just forget it, i mean, dun regret letting it go. Just do it, dun think about the times anymore. That's the only way u can ease the pain. I dun wanna hear crap like, i feel bad, empty, or like i regret. Cos all these can just phuck off. So stay strong, i'm not commanding you or anything k? It's just i dun wan u to stay like that. It's not good to keep it inside.

: Dwi :
I know that' it's painful, but i think it's the best too. Yes, it's a pity, a real BIG one. But letting go seems the best choice right now. Not really any reason in pursuing this matter. It will hurt, undoubtably, but let time heal wounds. Just live with it.. You say ur ok, i truly hope so. So Dwi, good luck. I really thank you a whole big lot for the times you were giving me advice online. They have been great help. I hope you aren't dissapointed that i'm just letting things go now.

Things like ended before they started? It's weird.

Ash Friday

2005-02-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

Woots, It's Ash Friday!

Mass at chapel was pretty cool. I liked the communion medley. Sounded really really nice.

Had to do an announcement, but I couldn't find my speech at the place Mdm Lee told me to look for it. So i ended up going there prepared to do an impromptu one.. And by God's will, or help, or watever u name it, There he was, Friar Michael. Woohoo! Yeah, i told him bout the announcement and he made it for me!! Yay!! I could've promised that he did a much better job that i would've done. Thanks alot Friar!!

Anyways, i didn't go for training today... oOoOoOoo.... yes... screw me.. haha, watever. I had to come home to look after the house as my relatives were coming. Not my house, as in my grant aunt's house whom i had to look after. Yes. They were busy playing while i was busy blogging the last post.

Rushed off to meet mel and marese for mass. Met Mel, together with Gordon! At T.P mrt.. hmm.. suspision.. hmm.. Haha, nvm.... MAss was hmm erhem. Haha, wat can i say luhs ar? You were beside me, then mel was on the other side.. Like i was in the center.. Haha, 'bliss' <== Quoted from Nigel. LOlz.

After mass, went for a surprise dinner with father John!! Wow! I never thought that this would happen. Heh. Ate at Sumo Bento.. first time, dinner there, with mel and marese andthier mum, thier aunt, father john. Then back at church, Father John showed us this GIANT catfish in the pond at the grottho! It was like BIG!!!! BIG!!! haha, and you had to go like "wow, bigget than my hand!" Lolz, so cute!! hahahaha.

Well, i guess tonite was really pleasant, mostly because of you. Haha, i feel pretty confused now, after seeing you, the way you are. Just a lil off track right now. But aiya, watever luhs, i'll just trust that the Lord will make me do the things i should do. I'm just feeling a lil tired from doing things now.

P.S: I still find it amazing that i'm going over.

Happy CNY, All of ya!

2005-02-11T16:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all of you out there!

Heya! How's CNY so far? Collected alot of ang pows? Eat good food? Heh, those are truly enjoyable things.

But somehow, these things were secondary to me this year. This year, it just felt somehow different. I wasn't looking forward to all the money, lesser on the food. I just felt that it was a celebration, with all my family members all gathering at one place to celebrate the New Year.

Went for morning mass at Christ The King. Wore my chinese coustume thingee there. Felt so cool. Haha, it certaily felt good, i mean the material. silky, smooth. Nice. Mass was pretty hip, with the oranges and stuff. Even the father wore a chinese costume at the end of the mass. Heh.

Then headed to my aunt's place in AMK. I usually visit there like only once a year. :s But yeah, they still welcomed me with open arms. How happy i felt. We stayed there bout 1 1/2 hour. Found out my dad was not feeling well, fever and flu and sore throat. Oh man, praying really hard it doesn't get worst. *Lord, please help my dad recover, he doesn't deserve to fall sick in place of me." In place of me, yes, that was wat i thought. I usually fall sick just before CNY, every year. But his year was different. I was ok. But instead, my dad fell sick, so i felt a certain guilt in me. Somehow, i thought God had made him sick instead of me. But i know the Lord is merciful and that he will grant my prayers. At least i hope so.

I finally met my cousins after bout 1 month? Haha, oh how i miss them sia, never fail to be happy with them. :)
Oh, my elder cousin became so... so... trendy. Yeah, hair, shirt, pants, shoes, phone, almost everything. Like a total makeover. Had this feeling on envy in me, "if only.. if only.." But somehow, i jus told myself, i'm the way i am, and i dun really care how ppl think bout it. So yeah, that's bout it.

Packed with ppl in my house at bout 6. All sitting around, chatting, eating. Yup, that's the festive mood! Ang pows are just a side of it. :) FOr me, i had a great time with my cousins. We took almost 9MB of pictures on our phones. Haha. Uploaded it all onto my computer, then onto the net, where i sent to my aunt in norway. Hope she receives it. :) I tried to take a picture of everyone, mostly of which i completed. Ok, maybe only half luhs, but i uploaded them on a 56k modem ok?!

Haha, ok, second day was like empty.. woke up at 9.30, waited for my uncle to come pick my great grandma and great grandaunt to my grand aunt's house for house sitting. She's on a holiday btw. Yeah, so waited till bout 1.15pm, was playing com the whole while. Lolz. I had to go to my xiao lao gu's place with my cousins. Rushed there by my uncle's car. Made it. :)

They too, are only visited by me once a year. But i'm glad i went. Haha.. ok this day, it was for the ang pow. Sorry la, only this day, i promise. My elder cousin dragged me along to watch movie with his frenz. Hmm.. i went in the end. Felt really awkward at the start lorz, i mean, i dun even know them, and i didn't have a reason to be there. But watver luhs, since i was there, let's just make the most out of it. There was this hunky guy, called Alan. Yeah, he's ok i guess. Then Ariffin, guy who liked making ppl guess things, and counting things.. :s, Beryl, assumably from Mel's class, kept on hitting my poor cousin. Then there were two other gurls who came along later, one was bernnie i think, never go tthe name of the other. Yeah.

Sad to say, they're not the kind i would like to hang out with. For some reason, i didn't really like them. No Offence, but it's just how i feel.

Constantine was really nice. I advice you all to watch it. Though some really devout ppl might find it disturbing. A different bible in hell?! The Satan's version?! WTH!? haha, but it's all for the movie. DUn take it too hard. Movie consists of nice graphics. Demons were ugly enough, Hell, to me, was well potrayed. Here's the thing, go read up bout th emovie before u watch. The first part is a lil confusing. But it get's ok later on.
Certainly a couple a shocking parts, which just takes you by surprise, and some really hilarious scenes.. Haha. Trust me, it's a good one to catch luhs. May just be wathing it again tomolo. Hohoho..

Oh man, how BIG a surprise i got last night. Yeah, just before i went to sleep. 11.55pm. Msg came in, i told myself i wouldn't care to rely unless it was you. I couldn't believe it, it was really you. Hmm.. Wow. Then after that, ring ring came. Yeah, It wes great talking to you. Was rather, nervous. But i tried to keep it down. Yeah, thanks for replying. Ironic thing was that i was just thinking that you were never gonna call at dinner that night. Heh. Yes mel, thank you too, and dwi too. Ass kicking worked out just fine. But i think i'm gonna require more. :S

Yeah, that's almost all bout it in two days. Heh, it's quite fun luhs. Right now, my aunts are upstairs playing mah jong. Lolz. See how they enjoy themselves? :)

A flyway to school.

2005-02-08T13:29:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how quickly God answer your prayers, or how long he can take to do so.

Sunday Night, i was at my grandaunt's house helping my uncle to redo his fish tank. Had to move everything out, change the wallpaper, clean the tank, wash the sand, dump the sand in, set up the filter and stuff.

Evrything took about three hours to complete. How tired i was, almost fell alseep while filling the tank up. By the time it ended, it was 3.30am, yes on a monday morning with school just a short 4 hours away.

Set my alarm, saw that i could only sleep for 1 hr 30 min. But watever, i as damn tired. Asked my aunt to call me at 5.45 in case i didn't wake up. Alarm rang, woke up and sat up. But for some reason, i fell back dead on the bed. Then after dunno how long, my phone rang and i woke up, for real this time. Thought it was 5.45, since that was when i asked my aunt to call, but to my horror and complete jaw dropping shock, i saw the time, 6.45am. "F**K!!!" was my first reaction, school starts in like 45 min?! WTH!! Didn't even bother to brush my teeth, just wore my school U, stuffed my books and ran out to the main road to catch a cab. Lucky it came after like 5 mins, time was 6.55. Damn, my first time in my whole life late for school! NOoOOoo!!! I dun wanna break that record. Up the cab, told the uncle to drive faster, he was a kind man, understood i was in a rush and did his part to comfort me. he even forgotten to on his meter untill he realised after sometime after.

At the thompson flyover, he was supposed to take the left lane to go under the flyovers to head towards the IJTP side, unfortunatly, he took the wrong road and we ended up on the way to adams road. I was like "DAMN!!! I"M SURELY GONNA BE LATE NOW!!!!" was repeating this over and over in my head. Then this thought about him purposely taking the wrong road to recoup his lost money before he turned on the meter came into my mind. But somehow i felt bad, cos there he was, trying his best to send me to school on time, and here i was, doubting him.

Wasted bout 15 mins on the detour. Time was about 7.15 when we got back on track. I was really worried, scared, and disoriented. prayed prayed and prayed that there was no jam outside IJTP, that i could make it to school on time. But it was 7.15am. Who could deny the fact that traffic would be heavy? But God had seemed to hear my desperate call. Made it past the road at IJTP pretty quickly. Took bout 10 mins. Yes, 7.25am outside CJC, i counted every second that passed.

Quick, please, just a few more minutes... Please let me make it Lord! I Beg you! Please let the exit road be free of traffic.. Yes, he had heard it, my weak, trembling prayer. Zoomed in to the Esso outside the sidegate and Aloiysious was there. My journey to school was that.. And i made it in time. Miraculously, with God's help.

How true there is this being, so kind, generous, merciful, and helpful, to all people, even those as flawed as us. What more could you ask? In the things he do, which make us realise more about ourselves, or as a matter a fact, any other thing in the world. Yeap, this incident, made me make a decision. Shant say what it is about, but i'm glad i did make it. I guess that's bout it, and one last thank you God for helping me on the day. I'll never forget it.

Amen!

Surprise, surprise!

2005-02-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hi ya'll, How's this first month?

Well, i'm just starting to settle down with the new class, frenz, teachers, workload, and responsibilities. I guess it's all within stride for now. And i do hope it continues to be that way.

This week was interesting. Welcoming mass went pretty well i guess. Only a few hicuups here and there. Haha. Then we had meeting after that. Saw all the new sec 1 members. haha, and as always, the sec 2's were all so enthu. That's a good sign, at least they're willing to do thier part. =)

Then after i left my school, came the first surprise. Caught a glimpes of you. Didn't expect to see you there. Nope. Not that day. Just behind a glass panel, there you were. So near yet so far i guess. Well, you may not have known at that moment i was there, but i surely did. It left a feeling in me on my way home. One which gave me strength to carry on the week, one which made me hope you were there again. I tried to keep my hopes low, for i knew that seeing you there again was immpossible. But how glad i was to have seen u.

Had chinese test on wednesday. Was studying the previous night, but i knocked off at 9.30 after falling asleep while studying. So woke up at 4.30 the next morning to finish it. But to my dissapointment the test didn't require us to know how to write the words. THey actually GAVE us the words. We just had to know the meaning. Haiz.. But i guess it's better that way. Haha, easier? Well, there're pros and cons to it luhs. Training was pretty slack. Did some throwing then box jump. Haha, kenneth totally screwed himself, and jerry almost got the box between his legs. they were quite unfit luhs i would say. Haha. Yes, on my way home, i kept telling myself that you'll not be there, but i just refused to accept it till i've walked there to confirm u weren't there. I hoped to avoid it, but seems like my feelings got a lil better of me, and i felt dissapointed, over a matter which i knew was impossible to come true. Hah. It wasn't so bad though...

Then there was this day, i forgotten which, where Eng Wei, Shaine and i were at Tanglin CC's basketball court. We left after seeing there was too many people. So just as we crossed the road back to school, the soccerball came flying out and it went straight under Genesius Chan's car. OMG!! He stopped the car, came out and shouted his lungs out at all the people in there. PHEW, lucky for us three, we came out just in time. Heh.. Praise the Lord..

Thrusday, went to John's house after school to do the lit presentation thing. WHen his sisters came back, i thought i was seeing one extra, cos i saw two downstairs wearing RGPS uniform then another sister came up. Haha, turns out all of this sisters are in raffles. Two younger ones in primary, and the elder one in secondary. Haha. It was really funny. Lolz. Oh, then i stole a picture from javier's phone. The one with him and valencia and another gal. Haha, thats what u get for reading my messages and browsing through my gallery at ur pleasure.. Fair trade i'd say?

The long awaited friday came, how i wanted to quickly get the day over with and head to church. Did weights for training. After 1 month i think. All my muscles are aching a little now. Did the usual excersises, military press, squats, and bend up pullover. Last one was the rotation thingee. My right side was like so inflexible i could extend the bar to the fullest. haha, but i guess it's ok la.

Went to watch the Ruggers play NTU. I really admired their courage to go against them. Though they lost, i think they put up a really good fight. At least they were all happy after the match. Saw blood matthias shorts and i was really wondering if he was ok. I've been getting so many persuasions to join rugby, i really would like to play, but yet i dun think i can handle it. I'm sorry for all of you who want me in, ppl like mark, and jay.

Well, i scooted off to chruch after the match, realised i was gonna be late! There was a lane blocked off bby the police for some reason, slowed down traffic alot. The bus i boarded was also fully packed. Went to get the coin for my mum, but i couldn't find the shop, think it wasn't there anymore, so i just went to church. Then came god's reward. Saw you infront of me, walking rather aimlessly. I thought in my head, "nah, can't be . You dun walk like that" But saw you when u turned sideways. Hah, all i could think was to go and say hi. Glad i did. Haha, if not you would've been more lost? Wells, i'm just happy i got to see you, unexpectedly, again. How funny god works.

How did the almost the whole group know huh?! Even Ada was into it with you guys. I can't believe it. Aiyo.. dun make me feel so awkward lehz..but i guess i can't stop what you guys are doing can i? Watever~~~

And kev, stop stealing my fries! I wan to eat them! Lolz.

How long it felt, yet how short it seemed.

2005-01-30T14:44:00.000+08:00

A week felt like a month, a day felt like a week. I dreaded it.

I woke up every morning, washed up, thought about how many days more it was till the end of the week. Monday.. Tuesday.. Wednesday.. i tried to pass these three days with training. But even so, it was soo very slow. And the thing which i looked forward to at the end of the week was clashed with yet another one of my commitment. I guess it's all part of the package of balancing your life. This had priority over that, sacrificing this for that.

Worst still, i had to use the com like on tuesday, wednesday, thursday.. My eyes were painful. I didn't wanna turn it on. Think it's the first time i didn't wanna use the computer.. I really dislike my sit in class. It's under the fan with the lighting above it. So my table, or anything around me flickers. It really does hurt when i close them. To make matters worst, i dun like gabriel. He's really annoying and irritating. I wan a change of seats. Put me anywhere else but near gabriel. He's just making class feel very uncomfortable.

This week was totally very stressful. Especially towards the end of the week. It just seems to funny. I wanted it to end quickly, yet i didn't want it to come cos of some things i had to do. Selfish of myself i guess.

Campfire was on friday evening. So I had to plan out the skit with the PSL's. I guess it was really very screwed up at first. I'm sorry i didn't have the script planned out. Reason's cos i had quite alot of research to do. Not forgetting my Lit test which was on friday. The campfire item really added a heavy weight on my shoulders. It was so difficult to get anything done. I really appreciate all of you who helped out. All of you who were present at the meetings, for however short you stayed. Especially gabriel tan, dinesh, shan, michael, qin rui, marcus, jian hao, javier. Thank you all for being there.

Though we didn't get to perform for the sec ones', we learnt something from this experience right? If you have something to show, dun hold back. I'm sure we can do better if we get another chance. So let's just look forward to it.

The mass thingy was also a big dragg. Fortunately i had Mr. Chua and javier to help with it. I finished it like at 11.30 on thursday night. Mass is on Feb 1st. I'm really sorry if there're any mistakes on it.

Friday finally came. How happy i was. Cheered after school, that the week of pain was over. Headed down to P.S with Jian Hao and Gerald and some others to get our presents for our sec one's. Got the badges for them. I didn't get the valgur ones cos i was afraid thier parents would complain. But i hoped they liked it.

Passed by that place when i headed back to school. Time was bout 4. There was this wanting in me to see something happen there. Though i knew that it was almost impossible. I just hoped for it. Furtile.

Yet, it was the thought of you that kept me strong throughout the week. But it was also you that made it feel so long. How ironic it seems. Yes, it paid off when i saw you. Every pain, every hurt, every longing, they all just dissapeared with that hug. It suddenly seemed all worth it.

Looking back on it now, it seemed so short a week. Filled with activities, how could it have felt so long i wondered. Normally these kinda weeks would be short lived. They would just pass in a flash. But this one was special. Cos you had a special effect on it. It made me realise more things bout myself.

P.S: You two* I'm glad you've figured things out a little. I hope you're both feeling more free now. I pray things will turn out good somehow, cos i know that He'll always be there for both of you. Not forgetting me too. :p

Test which you would take. (non-school) Haha..

2005-01-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

Your type is: ESFP
Outgoing (E) 65.63% Withdrawn (I) 34.38%
Realistic (S) 56.76% Imaginative (N) 43.24%
Emotional (F) 61.29% Intellectual (T) 38.71%
Improvised (P) 58.82% Organized (J) 41.18%

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Stability (57%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness (51%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
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This week just got better.

2005-01-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling happy, though i've yet to finish my work. For a simple reason, i'm happy. U can go guess why. I won't tell.

Week was short. Mainly cos of hari raya, and all the stuff i had to do. I have just missed two solid weeks of training, nd i'm like hyper eager to get back. Can't lose Shaine man.. it'll be a total disaster. :( SVDP on tuesday was pretty slack. I had to come up with the piece of paper for the coming mass on the 1st of feb. Had to get songs and think of prayers. It seemed so much harder doing it with people around. Especially with Randall and Robin crapping around with the other members.

So i had to finish it at home. Was homework filled that day, and even had to do this extra peice of work, plus another one for the SVDP notice board which i had just printed. Wanted to do it like on wednesday and thursday, but suddenly had stuff to do. Had to do the orientation, meet mr chua, and then rugby.. it was busy.

Fintan house got 2nd in interhouse Rugby. We didn't concede a SINGLE goal though. So how did we lose? We lost out on goal difference. Lawrence had scored more overall. That's the reason they won. But i think we were pretty darn good. Against their team of almost complete ruggers, we held them to a draw. Wait till the interhouse track and field comes, we'll see who wins. Heh.

Spent friday with my ex-classmates. Those from sec 2 that is. Went to watch Electra. Jennifer Garner was looking so hot in the red costume. And that girl, Kirsten Prout was looking good too. Prefered her blonde though. Anyways, we wanted to go play LAN, but everywhere was packed. So we walked and walked and visited arcades after arcades. Met quite a number of people here and there. I guess i didn't mind walking so much, cos i had my frenz so talk and crap with. Our route was something like :

Lido -->F.E.S.C-->Tangs-->scotts-->lucky plaza-->lido-->F.E.S.C-->Cine-->Meriden-->P.S

Yeah, and we ended up playing more arcade. Haha. The most squeeze balls thing is that the douby ghaut mrt there the x-box gaming place had LAN, and it was deserted... Haiz, nvm.. at least we know there is this place to go next time.

Met Steph, tim and kev at mt.p mrt. Steph showed me the IJ year book of 2004. Haha, found some familiar faces in there. But all looking so different. Like so smart and formal lidat. Haha. Too bad she missed this year's picture, cos she was sick when they took it. Haha, dun worry steph, there's always the next year and the year after that.

Went for RCIY after meeting them. Uncle David had like sudden amnesia.. He repeated his points a couple of times.. : But we managed to survive. Uh, taught Steph, Tim and Kev the lame jokes i aquired from camp. Haha, then used it on Ada.. The blank look on her face was so funny to laugh at.

Steph was like so amazed by the BLACK magic thing. Haha. She just didn't wanna believe it untill i told her the logic behind it. Wahhaa..... mel-o, we're gonna try it on u when we see u next time!! Muahahaahahah.... -evil laugh-

Anyways, saturday was like busy, insane, and tiring. Pent half the day in school. Had to do the Campfire backdrop and think of the psl item. :s Stress sia.. Stupid Qin Rui, u were the first to put up ur hand to do it wat, why come and push everything to me now. I didn't asked for it u noe, i was saboed by like everyone into doing it. Unfair.

Painting the backdrop was fun, untill i got white paint on my track pants. I was damn friggin sad la. Cannot wash on already. Wasted. Wonder if Mr Low will gimme a new one next year. Guess i'll have to go earn it. Haiz...
All of us were like laming around.. then some of us coloured each other's hair with paint. Orange, yellow, white. Yeah. Then michael got like paint all over his face.. took a pic of it, will upload it if i have time at home. Everyone was MAD. YEs, including me. We were all insane, screaming, danceing, and bondaging... We first tapped binni round his chest level. Then these very sadists who worked with me turned against me. wrapped me up in MY tape. Taping me horizontally was ok, but then i wonder who it was who taped it vertically.. Yes i repeat, VEYTICALLY. Had to use my hand to prevent my manhood from being split up. : Somebody save me... Lucky they were satisfied after taking a group photo with me... waahaha... Now i know how it feels like..

Then we paraded the backdrop after we washed it. Created the pole worship and rolly-poll-y. Haha. Rolly- poll-y could send a person going on forever. Just dun kill urself while doing it. If u wanna find out how it's done, can ask micael, binni, qin rui, darrick or me.

Went to P.S with Mic after we left school. Got these jap food thing which tasted really good. It's at the B2 Level. Then took a train home after that. Mic was so concerned bout his hair cos he was the only one who haven't washed it off. Managed to console him that it didn't look bad. Actually i liked it. It was cool. Haha. So yeah, took a nap on the train..

So just bout when i was going to wash my face and brush my teeth, it happened. The thing which made me happy. Yes. It was unexpected. But yeah, should thank you mel. Cos if it weren't for u i would've just slept without doing anything. Haha. So yeah, that's week three.

Simple l**e?

2005-01-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

It's starting to have an effect. All the things you two* said were useful. But at the same time it made my head go thinking about alot of things. Haha, i'm not saying it's bad. But it's just too much thinking. Simple is how i prefer it.
Thanks you two*! =)

Orientation camp

2005-01-16T13:35:00.000+08:00

Orientation Camp 2005

Half a level of noisy, new sec 1s and thier teachers, around 100 psls, 29 psfs and 3 teachers.

It was really fun.

i dun really wish to decribe in detail. It's... not useful i guess.
I felt that the sec ones were really not enthu at the start. Only a lil betta at the end.
Just got these questions to ask myself and all who helped in the camp. And to the sec 1s too if they every come to my blog..

Did the sec 1s really enjoy the camp?
Will they go out and tell thier juniors next time "orientation camp was so fun i wished i was a sec 1 again"
Did they learn more about thier frenz?
Did they see the closeness in the psf/ls during the camp?
Do they inspire to be as close as us?

I guess they will, eventually. Considering the programme that SJI has installed. That's most probly why all josephians luv SJI, and thier frenz as well. So i guess that's all i have to say. I luv all of ya who were in camp and made it so fun. And to the sec 1s too, have fun and treasure ur days in SJI.

Week 2/52.

2005-01-15T15:07:00.000+08:00

Wellz, this week was tiring. And i got sent out for no reason. It's all ur fault gabriel. No, no gabriel rodriguez, the gabriel in my class. So no need to get worked up steph*.

Monday was ok. Had fun during lit class with javier (jetflame). Haha, u betta shut it or i'll expose u too. It was also the only time i went for training. Oh man, it was torment. Cos last friday's training was easy, so coach made it like hell for us. Made us throw on wet ground. Worst still, shaine and i were throwing a 4 pound shotput on wet grass. So of cos we fell. After that i didn't there to go to full extent man.. the shotput landed on my palm lorz! and it hurt. Shaine fell shortly after that too, but his wasn't was bad as mine. Then coach didn't let us stop, so we went on.
Then in one of my throws while he was looking, i almost fell, skided for a good 30 cm, the mark was on the grass, i wondered how i survived. So he finally realised it was too slipery and let us stop. Phew. Anymore of it and i would've been gone. Then came the second part. It was running on the day. first set :300 X 2, 200 X 2. second set : 100 X4. Surprisingly i survived that too, without having the "on-the-verge-of-dying" feeling.

Tuesday: I got sent out of class my O.M.F for no reason. Stupid B*t**h. Accused me of laughin together with Ariff, Gabriel and Balu when i didn't! It was them three! I didn't even look up! So spent the whole A-math lesson outside. I prayed the teachers didn't see me. Was so pissed inside. Second time in two years two different teachers sent me out for nothing! How stupid is that?! Worst still, when i told her i didn't laugh, and gabriel backed me up, she didn't even wan to admit her fault! WTH is wrong with her?!
Had SVDP after school. Went to KWSH. It's been so long since i've last been there. They re-painted the whole hospital! Waha, suddenly so rich. Was to go play and chat with the elderly at the re-hap center, with three sec 2's. Waha, i realised how much my teochew detteorated from lack of usage. So lucky i was there to brush up. Some were really chatty, while there was one who just rejected any sort of contact. He had a really foul temper. So i just left him alone. How i wished i could help though. Anyways, spent bout an hour with this old man who thinks he is still 22 yrs old! Haha, amnessia? Lolz. Gave him some unto stacko blocks and domino and he formed them up into this interesting positions. I was trying to make out what he was trying to do but to no avail. He spoke cantonese, which i didn't know of, but i'm glad i made it through. I went home and packed all my camp stuff and brought it to YCK. Stayed over cos i needed the com. Slept at 12 sia.. after tying to do reasearch on my lit and msging marese. Prayed really hard i wouldn't wake up on the wrong side of the bed next morning.

Wednesday: My prayer was heard and answered. I felt ok. Went to school bringing almost all my books i had to leave in school. Haha. Cos had camp on thursday ma, so needed my books in school. I skppied trainin to go home and rest up and do research. Ended up not doing much of both. Heh.

Thusday: It finally came. I was waiting anxiously in class for 12 noon, to be released. Haha. Did chinese compo in class, amazing i finished it. Then had physics, then came pe. Did 2 pull-ups, then asked if i needed more, then he shook his head, so i just slacked off and dropped. Lolz. Hamos did like 20 lorz, he's only 40+kg. scary. Then went to three laps and then push-ups and sit-ups. Then recess, then chem prac. Bell rang and i scooted out into the canteen. Camp for me officially started.

I'll Post the Orientation tonite, gotta go get Lucas's board done.. hope can rush in time. Wonder if Tim'll help.
* Sorry Luc!*